I suppose this is better because it's a compilation of events as opposed to daily musings of what very little I do.
It was Christmas on Thursday. My siblings and I frantically cleaned the house the whole morning of Christmas eve while my mother cooked. I'm surprised my room is still clean and I mean actually clean. I found stuff that I thought I lost months, even years ago. Now I think I'm starting to be a clean freak. I keep making my bed or reorganizing things on my desk... Is that some form of OCD? Maybe just boredom... I suppose it's better then just sitting in front of a computer throughout the day. My room is actually now a place where I can just sit around and hang out by myself. I've been spending a lot of time by myself lately... but I'll expand more on that later on in the entry.
Back to Christmas. Most of my relatives were at my house on Christmas eve. I was glad that I was able to see my relatives again. I haven't seen them in such a long time. They're so fun. It made me really happy to talk and hang out with all of them. On Christmas day, we went to my aunt's house and my grandmother was there too. Again, we just talked and enjoyed each other's company. My uncle brought his computer and webcam with him and we were able to talk to a bunch of our other relatives around the world! Yes, I'm not just talking about the Philippines. I got to talk to my relatives from Japan, Saudi, Arabia in addition to the Philippines AT THE SAME TIME. It was so cool. Wanna hear something weird? My uncle in Saudi asked me what my major was. I told him it was graphic design. He replied with, "oh really? My daughter is in graphic design too! Her name is Danica." That freaked me out a little because... her name is REALLY close to mine. Well, Danica is not her real name... Her real name is actually the SAME as mine. Wow. We ended up talking to my relatives for a good three hours. It was really awesome. My grandmother seemed really happy to see her kids and their kids... she was smiling the whole day.
Also, I got to talk to my penpals from Japan. Both of which I haven't talked to in months. I talked to my penpal a few days before Christmas. We talked for a good two hours and caught up. I was surprised that she didn't resent me for not meeting up with her when I was in Japan... or not emailing her in such a long time. But nonetheless, I was glad to talk to her. I have her on facebook now, so we should be able to keep in touch more ofter. My other penpal has been extremely busy with entrance exam prep. That kid studies too hard. I was really glad I had a chance to talk to him too for a while. A good Christmas present.
I didn't buy anything on boxing day. I just stayed home. For some reason, there isn't anything in particular that I want to buy. I guess that's better for my parents. They don't have to spend money on me. But even on Christmas... I didn't want anything in particular. I was just glad to spend time with my family. Hopefully I'll get to see them New Year's eve. Is this somehow a way I'm maturing? I have no idea...
The day after boxing day, my friend woke me up and wanted to make cheesecake. I met up with at the supermarket and shopped around for all the stuff we needed. Well... more like, I got to the supermarket late and he already got all of the stuff. haha. We ended up making three cheesecakes. It was intense. So we were at his house and I honestly had an overload of Superhero movies. We watched The Incredible Hulk, Iron man and The Dark Knight. A bunch of our other friends came to join us. My friend brought along her cousin and... it was awkward. That's all I'm saying. Overall though, the day was really fun. I really should get out of the house more.
So I've been spending a lot of my time alone lately, as I said before. Well, I have been going out with friends and such... but when I'm home, I just stay in my room and do whatever. I've been thinking... about lots of things. Sometimes I feel like I'm moving too fast and I have to wait around for everyone else. But some days I feel like I'm getting left behind. Regardless, I feel alone in both scenarios. I remember I was talking with my friend one time. He said, "sometimes I'm home and I think, 'wow... I'm lonely.' I need to find something to fill that void... I just don't know what". I suppose that's why I've been cleaning so much... to forget that I'm just at home not doing anything special. But then again, I like being alone sometimes. I guess I just don't know what to do with my time. There's so many things I could do... or should do. I'm just not in the mood. This feeling will probably pass... I'm just over thinking. It's what I do.
So I've been catching up on Nana after I was looking through the volumes I bought. The chapters are really, really long. But I don't mind. There's some parts in the manga that seem similar to what I'm feeling right now... I suppose that's why I'm so intrigued.
There isn't really much to add to this entry. So I'll just stop here. I think I'll try to do something other than cleaning.
The End.
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