Stop This Train.

I'm alternating between Jack Johnson and John Mayer now. Really chill music. It's really good to work to. Well, in theory. I haven't really been doing much work. 

So remember my last post? I made a list of all the stuff I needed to get done. Haven't gotten them done yet. I'm planning to get one project done today before 5PM... where then I will meet up with my group and put all our stuff together. Don't know how long that'll take... but at least that'll be out of the way tonight. 

I'm having a mini-panic attack right now. I accidentally fell asleep. Like, really. I was supposed to take a 1-2 hour nap. I remember my phone's alarm ringing multiple times and me turning it off each time it rang. I really should put my alarm away from arm's reach. 

I still need to get that super late project done. Aw man, I'm soo screwed.  I suppose I'll do it tonight after the group meeting during one of many all-nighters this week... Although I probably failed.*sigh* 

It's such a shame that I don't even care how badly I'm doing in my classes. Well, surprisingly,in my fine arts cultural studies class.. I'm improving. I actually got an A on part of my essay. WTF? I'm not complaining. Hopefully that can boost up my mark. I stopped caring about my science class and I just hope to get a B in that class. All my other design classes likewise. I only need to get a 65 average to stay in the program. So.. aiming for a B average this semester? Yes! 

Aw man, this strike totally screwed me over. I have no motivation for anything. I'm already in summer mode. Everyone else is done (or almost done) school while I have to rot in projects and exams for a month longer. At least... I'm a month earlier than high school? 

I've been looking through my schedule for this week. It's a little crazy. Okay, crazy is an understatement. Basically, I probably WON'T be sleeping for a good.. 2-3 days. I'm not exaggerating. I'll have to compromise sleep in order to get all my crap done. Maybe I can squeeze 1-3 hours of sleep. I'm actually looking through my schedule again and planning what days I won't be sleeping.. 

I think Wednesday will be my only non-working day. Picking up my past art projects at my high school and then hanging out with my friend later on. I'll probably visit my teachers before then and maybe forget for a bit how screwed I am. Depending on how much has to be done... that might prove to be another all-nighter. Well, let's aim for a partial one. 3 hours of sleep? Yeah? 

If I didn't have so many hours at work, I could probably sleep during the week. I'm working the whole weekend. Basically working 20 hours over a course of 3 days. Help. I wish I could, but I can't take off any more hours at work. I really need the money. I really need to learn how to save money, actually. Although.. the money spent wasn't a result of reckless spending. I did go shopping a week ago... but then I had to pay my driving instructor a few(ha!) hundred dollars although my parents agreed to help me pay for part of it. 

So I just found out that my dad lost my eyeglass prescription. I need to buy contacts for my cosplay... which takes ABOUT 2 weeks to get to here. I need to get it this week in order to get it in time for the con. I'm getting really frustrated with my parents. Even if I tell them things ahead of time, they put their own things ahead of mine and pretend to forget what I tell them. Then they complain that they have so many things to do and they don't have time. Although half the time they just sit on their asses and watch tv. I haven't watched tv for over 30 minutes a day in weeks. So much for that argument. I hate how I have to come off as a bitch to get what I want. If I "kindly" ask or remind my parents, they blow it off. When I have to raise my voice and sound condescending, then they finally listen. My dad's finally getting my prescription today after 2 weeks of asking. 

I just wish that everything could just go away. I'm so stressed out and I don't know how to deal with it. I'm due for an emotional breakdown. I just know it. Who wants to take bets? Probably tonight. Wait... right now?

So I'm not sure where this entry's going. I suppose it's a sign that my mind's wandering and I need to get some work done. I should have started working 2 hours ago. I hope someone's praying for me. 

Goodbye sleep. Goodbye sanity. 

The End. 

No Such Thing.

Now I'm getting into John Mayer. 

Basically downloaded his whole discography instead of being productive. 

I like the Continuum album the best so far. Very jazzy. 

I'm actually supposed to be at work right now... Called in sick. 

I basically wasted my whole day yesterday so I gotta make up for it tonight. I'm planning to get at least 2 projects done today.. then I have to pull an all-nighter on Sunday... possibly Monday too. 

Right now, I'm basically finishing a project that was due two days ago.. Then I have to finish up some layouts for a group project that's due Tuesday. Well, I need to meet up with my group on Monday to put it all together. I'll need to get some sketches done before I lay everything out. I think I'll stick with something simple.. looks alot nicer. Every time I try to make something overly complicated it ends up looking too busy and ugly. 

Theeen, I need to have a rough copy of an essay done by Tuesday. Well, the whole essay doesn't have to be done. Even rough notes can be done. I guess I'll try to get half of the essay done in rough form...

I'm not quite sure why I'm explaining what assignments are due and how I'm going to finish them. I suppose it's just a form of procrastination. 

So, the only thing I actually did yesterday that I planned on doing was watch Garden State. It's really short but I liked it. Some parts are so awkward that it's funny. There were parts where I cried even though I really shouldn't have. I think that was the stress making me cry. Well, I feel better now. 

Except... I feel kind of exhausted. I guess I have yet to catch up on sleep. I had a good.. 10 hours of sleep the night before last and I felt so tired the whole day. I had.. another 10 hours of sleep last night and.. still tired. I don't think I'd be able to function at work even if it was only a 4-5 hour shift. Plus I need to get some work done... 

Aw man.. I have two 8 hour shifts in a row  next week. I would call in sick to both of them but I actually need the money. I'm so broke right now. I really need to learn how to save money. I think my paycheck is only going to contain 2 shift's worth of pay for this week... and those 2 shifts were only 4-5 hours each. I would totally work more hours, but since I have so much schoolwork to do, it's so difficult to balance both. 

Okay. I really should stop procrastinating. 

Gotta do work... or else I would've blown off $60 worth of scanning items for nothing.

The End.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.

I'm really getting into Jack Johnson. He's so mellow. I like. Listening to this kind of music makes me want to really start playing guitar again. I really hope I make I can get into the guitar class at my school next year. I mentioned that to my friend last night and he told me he could help me get started so I can pwn some n00bs... in an introductory guitar class. haha. 

I haven't been sleeping much. Twice this week I've been having 2 hours of sleep. I guess it's my fault for watching movies instead of doing homework. I watched Detroit Metal City, V for Vendetta (well.. more like finished it. Watched 30 minutes of it in an attempt to "test" the downloaded video the night before), and Fight Club. All very good movies. Maybe I'll have time to watch Garden State this weekend. It's less than 2 hours. That's usually the amount of time I waste when I'm reluctant to do homework. In other words, I'll most likely watch it during one of my many "breaks". ;D

So I suppose the countdown to school ending is starting. I only have... 3 weeks for my Thursday classes and 4 weeks for my Monday/Tuesday classes to end. I will be so happy when May 14 is over. That will mark the end of 12 hour days at school. I really need to carefully plan my schedule next year. It's not even the fact that I have class for the whole 12 hours. It's one four class, a four hour break, and then another four hour break. Sure, I appreciate the four hour break when I have to finish up the assignment for another class but... it gets annoying. I'm basically at school longer than I really have to be. 

I suppose it's crunch time now. We basically have 1 major project (with the exception of one class) due per class now. Well, I actually have to finish up a project that was due yesterday. It's really bad that I don't care so much. It's so hard to get motivated.... especially every time I think about the fact that I should have been done at the beginning of April... stupid strike. 

Anime North is in 28 days. I have yet to make my cosplay, order contacts, buy a wig and style it, and make a massive hammer that apparently has to at least be the same size and I am. I also have yet to start on making merchandise to sell. I should make some sketches between classes so I at least have something. 

So uh... something happened yesterday. It was really random. Basically, I saw this friend perform at a talent show at my old high school. When the show was over, him and another friend walked me over to the bus stop. He was about to cross the street and I hugged him. He said, "thanks for coming to see me!" So I responded with, "yeah, of course". Then he said, "I love you". At the time I didn't think anything of it and I said, "aww I love you too! Be careful going home!"

It could be just a "I love you as a friend" kinda thing. Maybe he just really appreciated the fact that I went out to see him perform last night and I haven't seen him since his birthday which was four months ago. I could just be over thinking... since that is my nature. It probably is that. There was much speculation with this person last year... it's really hard to tell. It was just a little shocking when he said that... at a really random time. I need to stop worrying and assuming things. I need to do some homework. 

So, I will try to get some work done. If my assignment didn't involve websites and HTML, I would totally turn off my internet connection to avoid distraction. Wish me luck.

The End.

Keep it on Wax.

I have rekindled my love for Alexisonfire. I forgot how awesome they are. They have a new album due reeeaally soooon! I had to torrent the Crisis album ALTHOUGH I have the actual CD. My sister just decided to borrow it and never give it back. Who knows what condition it's in? D: 

I'm finally home after a 7 hour shift. So tired. I thought that maybe I would go home early today but... unfortunately not. It was surprisingly busy today! But there were also some really dead periods too. I didn't get my second 15-minute break today... but I guess it's not too bad because when I realized that, I was going to go home 20 minutes after that. haha. 

Anyway, school is still kicking my ass... but not to same extent as last week. I'll be sooo happy when 8:30PM rolls around tomorrow. Then I can ACTUALLY watch movies and be lazy for at least one day. I'm also going shopping with one of my close friends on Friday. There's so many things I need. PLUS I think I'll make my way to Silver Snail and reserve myself some Rorschach action figures. Yes, I said action figures. One with the mask and one without. haha. He's so popular that he's always sold out. :( I got my brother to ask when the next shipment is... and it's in June. Maybe I can pick them up at AN? But it may be overpriced... I don't know. 

 I'm buying circle lenses either this weekend or early next week!  LOOK HOW AWESOME! 

 I really like this series of lenses because they cover more of the iris than other lenses so they look a lot more natural. I emailed the shop i'm buying them from and they're $40 for both prescription and non-prescription. Alsooo it only takes about 2 weeks for the lenses to get here so I can get them in time for AN! Planning to get green (for my cosplay), gray and violet (just because. XD). 

Still gotta get a wig for my cosplay... and then I need to cut it and make props/the costume itself. PLUS I really need to get on to making merchandise. I think if I make 2-3 drawings a week it won't be so bad. Gotta prioritize my time better. 

Okay.. back to work. Rather... back to starting to work. Maybe if I work hard enough, I'll get some decent amounts of sleep.

The End. 

Hello, I'm in Delaware.

Whiney Rant Alert. Read at own risk.

So I thought this weekend would mark the end of my unending assignments. Unfortunately, the unending part still applies to this week... and probably the week after that.

Right when I think I'm almost done, more and more things get assigned. What sucks is the fact that I have so much to do... with very little time to do it. I was supposed to finish a bunch of things last night but, to my surprise.. family came over and I was way too tired from the multiple 2-3 hour nights I've been getting for the past 2 weeks. Because I was so tired, I slept in till 1PM and needed to get ready for church at 3... I'm going to get as much work done tonight before 11:30PM... I need to get a decent amount of sleep because it's going to be, pretty much the busiest day of the year for IKEA tomorrow and I'm working close to 8 hours. FML. I thought I'd be able to work on things after work... but now my mom wants us to go to a 4 HOUR mass tomorrow night at 8 PM. I have work will 5:30... it takes me a while to get home because I don't drive... 

How the hell am I going to get all of this stuff done? So much for watching movies and actually having a day where I can enjoy myself for once. 

I don't know... It's not that I'm against going to church or anything. But we could totally go the next day and not have to be in mass for 4 hours. I don't like when people think they can take precedent over certain things without thinking about how other people actually have a mountain of school work and 8 hours shifts at work. I guess I'm not sleeping Saturday or Sunday night. Good thing my class is at 4PM on Monday. 

Hopefully my next entry will be a lot happier. 

I need to get some work done... 

The End.

Between Rupture and Rapture.

So I'm at school right now. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I practically had 3 projects due today. I'm finally finished with them and I can experience partial freedom for 2 days. Then its a long weekend. No school. No work. Perhaps a movie marathon will be in the works this weekend? I have about... 8-10 movies I've downloaded but haven't had the time to watch. 

My room could pass off as a replica hurricane site. I have yet to finish reading my Watchmen graphic novel. Nor have I even touched my cosplay. Need to get things done! Pronto!

So I'm waiting a while for my friend. Unfortunately, in an attempt to leave my house early (I woke up an hour later than I wanted to), I forgot my phone. 

Oh, class is over. People are leaving... She might be coming out now. More to come later.

The End.

Save Your Scissors.

For the next 52 days, I'll probably be listening to City & Colour with every given opportunity. Why, you ask? BECAUSE ON MAY 25, JNEH AND I ARE GOING TO SEE HIM! 

Now feast your eyes on the greatness that is Dallas Green:

What's so awesome about this is, we have Anime North and then Dallas right after. I'm so happy I think I just might faint. 

This day–despite the pouring rain outside–is probably one of the best days ever. I got off work (which was an 8 hour shift) and now I have more time to work on stuff. Now hopefully my dad hung onto the receipt where it says that I bought an ipod. That way I can replace it. haha. 

I can't wait till next Thursday's over. Like, srsly. THEN SWEET, SWEET PARTIAL FREEDOM!

Okay. Now back to work. *sigh*

The End.

Like Knives.

Haven't updated in a while. School is literally kicking my ass. I haven't actually had the time to have a life outside of school and work. I'm trying really hard to get things done ahead of time... but it's just so overwhelming. Once I finish one thing, 2 or 3 things show up and it feels like it's never going to stop. I haven't gotten to the point where I want to cry yet. I still have a few days till it gets that far. 

Want to know what my schedule's like so far?

-Friday (tomorrow): Work from 11:00-7:00. Might have to meet up with people to finish a project due Tuesday.

-Saturday: Meeting with group again at 11:30 to finish up project. Then onto work from 5:00-10:00

-Sunday: Need to go to church at 10:30AM, then  onto work from 2:00-7:00. After work, I'll be working my ass off on my dying/research project.

-Monday: Dyeing assignment & research paper due. Need to get design image book printed and bound in the morning. I'm expecting close to 50+ pages. Oh joy. Will probably be working on essay proposal and annotated bibliography. Possibly no sleep.

-Tuesday: Design image book, interdisciplinary project presentation, essay proposal and annotated bibliography due.

-Wednesday: Surprisingly, no work. But I'll be working on my assignments due the next day.

-Thursday: 20 compositions done on illustrator, 10 vector drawings of photos I took, 4 html layouts. 

I really wish everything wasn't due on the same week. It's just so frustrating because there's only so much I can do before going completely crazy. 

On a more positive note? My friend and I might go see City and Colour on either May 25, 26 or 27! Omg it would make my life to see Dallas Green play live. He's such an awesome singer/musician. After listening to his CDs it made me want to play guitar again. I'm still debating whether or not I should take those lessons at school. My poor acoustic has been left unplayed for  so many years. =(

One of my "bosses" at work is being nicer to me. Well, he was never mean but our conversations would consist of "hi how are you?" "I'm good, how are you?" "good". Now we actually TALK. And the other day, he complimented my hair. It's kind of weird because it was so sudden. Hopefully I won't do something to piss him off. I like the niceness. haha.

Oh man.. there's so many things I need/want to do after next Thursday is over. I need to go shopping. I haven't bought new clothes in a really, really long time. And I also need to get started on my cosplay. I think I can get some parts of it done without consulting with my cosplay group. I can probably get the pants, scarf, headband and accessories out of the way before we all meet up and make the jackets together. Plus, I need to draw/colour merchandise for anime north. Woooow. It's gonna be a busy couple months.

I think I'm going to change my availability at work. I can't handle so many shifts and there's close to 40 cashiers that can work. Plus, I got a raise at work so I can work less hours and still get decent amounts of money. I think they'll survive without me working 21832918019 hours. 

The schedules for the next school year is up. I can take guitar class! I'm debating whether to take 2 courses in the summer so there's less the worry about during the actual year. I still have some time... well, till Thursday. 

I think I'm going to head off to bed pretty soon. Need to be rested for work. *sigh*

The End.