Hm... you seem bored.

Indeed I am.

So, today is the 24th day of the strike. What am I doing? Sitting in front of my computer and not doing anything of importance, like always. Nothing exciting has been going on lately, I was supposed to go to my uncle's house this weekend but he got sick. I'm pretty sure I'm going over there next weekend. That gives me a good week to finish EVERYTHING. Hopefully I'll actually get to finish what should have been done a month ago. 

What exactly needs to be done, you ask? Well, I have created a list in the hopes that it would somehow inspire me to be productive. It has since failed to do so. Without further ado:

-Finish typography projects (provide progress work)

-Finish visual language project (provide progress work)

-Study for Understanding colour exam

-Study for FACS (Fine Arts Cultural studies) exam

-Work on FACS project 

-Draw/Sculpt things for anime north

-Clean/organize room

So I think the only real thing I've done on this list is clean my room. Multiple times. Well, right now, it seems rather early for me since I've been sleeping well after midnight for the past few weeks. The days just seem that much longer, I suppose. After a week of sleeping at 4AM, I've been trying to sleep a little bit earlier, however. 

It seems I have a fair amount of work ahead of me. Let's try and get started. Please.

The End. 

Slight observations.

Again I'm not doing work. Well, actually I'm downloading some programs to get some work done. My uncle was supposed to pick me up today... but I think, due to lack of communication, he kind of forgot about our get-together. He's been working during the week so I can't blame him. It's my fault for not reminding him. Anyway, I would much prefer if he came over for one day. I think it would be too much of a hassle for me to stay there the whole weekend. 

I think the strike at my school has left me way too much time to think about things. I suppose it can prove to be quite useful as I've changed my perspective on things. One thing being my pursuit of getting a boyfriend. Wow, that doesn't sound desperate at all *sarcasm*. Anyway, through observation of not-so-recent events, I've realized that there's other things that more important than finding that "special someone". Not to be cliche or anything, but when it happens it'll happen and I'm perfectly content with where I am right now.

Another thing. I woke up today and looked in the mirror and it seems I've lost some weight... but I think I've done so unhealthily. It could be lack of sleep; my sister is certain of that. I slept close to 4AM again. It's been about 4-5 days this week where I've slept this late. What's really bad is the fact that I do nothing productive. Now I've been waking up past noon for the past few days. Also, I seem to be losing my appetite a lot more. I can't seem to eat that much anymore. I told my sister (future doctor) and she said my body is messed up because I haven't been sleeping properly. Also, because I've been sleeping and waking up at such odd hours, I already missed 1-2 meals. 

Also, due to my odd sleeping patterns, I've gained oh-so-wonderful dark circles around my eyes. I'll soon be looking like this guy if this continues. 

There's so many things I could do... the strike has literally been on for a month and I have very little to show for it. I wish I was more productive. I suppose I need some sort of other power to control me  because, I feel like I have nothing to motivate me. Well, isn't that sad... 

So I've been thinking about getting a job really soon.  I realized how broke I am and how lazy I'm becoming. Might as well do something and get paid for it.  Actually, I'm planning to send out some resumes next week. I just need to edit it a bit and get some references. I was telling my friend, who I also used to work with and he told me to go back to the place I used to work at, which was Black's. He told me that I would obviously get the job because I had worked there already and I wouldn't really need any training. I thought about it... and I don't want to go back. I obviously left for a reason and I'd rather work somewhere new. That way, I'd get more experience in different working environments, I suppose. So thanks, but no thanks. 

Alright, my programs are almost done downloading and I guess I'll try to actually work. I wonder how many times I've said that in this blog and actually tried. Anyways, wish me luck.

The End.

What have you done lately?

Hm... absolutely nothing!

So this week was again, a failure. I suppose it's due to the fact that there really isn't any pressure to finish anything. I feel so uninspired. I know I have a bunch of things to do, I even have a list of things... I just don't want to do them. 

Well, I did accomplish something. I cleaned my room... again. I find that it's so much easier for me to do work when my workspace is fairly clean. It's not fully organized, mind you, but it's clean enough to prevent me from ripping out my hair and crying. 

Along with my sudden urge to clean, I also hung up some design posters I got for free. I got them in early September when I went on a downtown trip with people in my program. We visited the RGD (Registered Graphic Designers of Ontario)'s main office and got these. I think they're pretty cool. Hopefully they'll inspire me to do some work. Guess how many times it took me to take that picture? A total of about ...10 times. I even had to turn off my lights and use the flash on my camera so there would be a minimal amount of glare. It's not professional quality, but at least you can see most of the design without much interference. Also, click on the photo to see the details of the poster. I especially like the red one. 

Alsooo, I found an eraser while cleaning. I can't say that it's the eraser I was looking for because the one I usually use was borrowed and lost by my little brother. However, this newfound eraser will prove perfectly sufficient. I'm still in the drawing mood and I really need to think of ideas on what to draw and make at Anime North. 

Last night was officially day number 3 of sleeping at 4AM. I am honestly a few hours away from being totally nocturnal. What's really weird is that I was talking to my penpal the other night from 1:30AM to 3:30AM and he got tired before I did. By the way, he lives in Osaka and it was 5:30PM over there. Wow, there must be something wrong with me. As a result, I haven't been able to get out of bed before noon. My internal clock is officially screwed up. Yay! In addition, I've upped my caffeine intake. Well, okay, not really... I usually have 2 cups of coffee a day but it would usually be throughout the day. Now, I get 2 cups simultaneously right when I get up. So basically 1 cup, refill... yeah. 

So I did a personality test, care of this wonderful little person and I found the results to be frighteningly accurate.  So,  I have actually tried to post this entry a total of three times to provide an excerpt from the website... but technology just isn't cooperating with my today. I will just provide you with this and you can see the result yourself. 

Hm... what else did I do today? I uploaded a bunch of Korean and Japanese music videos to my ipod. I was on a downloading and uploading rampage. At least now, I won't be bored in the car. 

And that's about it... I really should do some work. *sigh*

The End.

Seems like one of those days...

So my inspiration to work has gone down the drain.

What's weird, though, is that I'm not in the mood to do... anything. 

I've been doing little things to keep myself busy, but I'm not even enjoying myself.

Things I've done so far:

-checked email

-checked Facebook

-watched 1/4 of My Boss, My Hero

-read Breaking Dawn... after reading 2 chapters, I quit.

-learned Japanese via Nintendo DS

-again checked email

-again, checked facebook

-emailed penpals

-emailed my friend (we've had a huge email chain going on since October).

-walked around the house

-played Cooking Mama 2

-again, learned Japanese via Nintendo DS

-again, checked email

-checked blog on York strike (no new info)

-contemplated cleaning my room

-contemplated doing some work

-changed my desktop wallpaper

-watched youtube videos

-browsed random design websites

-blogging.

*This list is sure to repeat itself in some way in the next few hours...

I think I've acquired some form of ADD. I can't seem to focus on a single thing today... not even procrastinating! I have no idea what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm just having an off day. I suppose that's what I get for sleeping at 4AM.

Oh, weird thing, my brother was up until 4AM and I didn't know this until my sister messaged me on msn. He was working his butt off on his history essay and my sister was helping him edit it. My sister is a grammar nazi, no joke. I remember when she would edit my stuff and it would take AT LEAST 3 hours for her to look at it. Then I would correct my stuff and she would spend another few hours to edit it some more. 

So this afternoon, I woke up at 1PM. I heard my mom talking to someone who sounded awfully like my brother but I thought to myself, you're crazy, he's at school. Just get out of bed you lazy cow. After washing up, I saw my mom and dad leave to go to the supermarket. After that, I saw my brother standing near the kitchen. Surprised, I asked why he wasn't in school and whether he slept in or not. Then he said, "I don't have to go to school today. They called at 7:30 this morning... It's closed down because someone set part of it on fire. It's on the news." That's a little shocking. My mom even told me that, while her and my dad were driving by, she saw a bunch of fire trucks surrounding the school. My brother goes back to school on Wednesday. My parents are probably absolutely overjoyed that their kids are staying at home instead of going to school (sarcasm, btw). 

Right now, I feel like the day has been dragging on. It feels like it's midnight when it's almost 8:30... I can't even do things to pass the time because nothing is keeping my interest for that long.

I think I'll walk around the house again. I'm starting to get back pains from lazing around.

The End.

Recalling a better time

So I apologize for my rather angry, bitter predecessor of this message. I've calmed down since then mainly due to the fact that I have indeed been doing things to take my mind off that... incident. I forgot to tell you about my wonderful downtown adventure that I had with a few friends. Well, it was mostly planned as a get-together for our two friends, who had their birthdays within the same week. This was also a way to celebrate our completion and survival of our Critical Issues exam. 

I took lots of pictures.... I honestly felt like that over excited mom that just shoves cameras in people faces. But yeah, yesterday was really awesome. We had lunch at a place called, "Okonomi House". It's a restaurant just a little bit off Bay st. where they serve Okonomiyaki–Japanese pancakes, essentially. We spent a really long time in that restaurant eating, talking and laughing. My friend and I brought with us our epic cake–which they loved. We even offered the cake to the people working at the restaurant! After that, we pretty much walked around downtown. We mostly spent our time on Queen and Chinatown. It was sooo fun. I think myself and my other friend (the one in the last picture, far left) annoyed quite a bit of people downtown. We were laughing at each other and other things waaaay too much. I was practically laughing the whole day. It was really awesome. 

So here are a few photos to document our little get-together:

The epic cake!

Rearranging the letters on the cake... too many inside jokes. XD

My friends enjoying themselves. I think my friend on the far left is a little too much. 

Hm... what else did I do yesterday? Okay, this may be a bit random, but I was looking at history videos on John F. Kennedy. It was the 45th anniversary of his assassination yesterday and there were features on him... So I decided to have a look. The videos were basically highlights of achievements during his presidency as well as a information on his assassination. I basically sat there fore 1-2 hours watching all of these videos. I found it to be really, really interesting. Well, I did a project on him in grade 8 and thought he was an amazing political figure. He achieved so much in his short term of presidency. After that, I was looking up conspiracy theories on his assassination many of which were very interesting to read. I kind of get creeped out after a while, so I had to watch really happy videos to calm me down.... I ended up sleeping at 4AM. 

I always tend to do that, freak myself out. There was one time I saw something about Jonestown–the incident where hundreds of people drank poison-laced kool-aid thus resulting in a mass suicide. I watched some videos and researched the incident independantly and again, freaked myself out. I lay on my bed for 2 hours unable to sleep because I was so scared.

But I'm fine now, no worries. It's rather informative stuff. I think I should just watch/read these things earlier in the day, though... I forgot how much I enjoyed history. 

Well, I suppose I'll stop the entry here. I should do some work.

The End.

Confessions

So the next few lines may seem a bit ranty. I'll try my best to make this a a good read. But if my emotions take over, I'm sorry. I make no promises. 

Have you ever had that feeling when, through observing or experiencing something, you get shocked enough to change? I mean, it could be either witnessing something great or something utterly appalling. I think I had something like it today. Mind you, it wasn't something that was to the extreme like the two things mentioned. But at least I'm inspired to change. It came from a bad experience this afternoon. I don't want to get into much detail, but today, I realized that I don't want to be associated with the idiocy that some people in my family tend to possess. Yes, that may seem harsh, but after witnessing what happened today, I would think it would be pretty apt. 

It could of course be the anger talking right now. But I honestly could not believe how stupid people can be. What's worse, that stupidity was coming from people I'm related to. I can't stand that. I suppose impressions such as these tend to stick in my mind and irritate me to no end. I don't hold grudges, but I become weary based on passed experiences, I guess. 

It's so frustrating being a victim who's misunderstood and can't properly explain themselves because people are so stubborn and stuck in their tiny little worlds and refuse to listen to anything past that. I hate when people always have to insist that they have to be right. There's something called compromise and both parties should have a chance to express their views. I hate this whole idea of hierarchy. 

I guess I'll make myself that much better by not letting this experience hinder me. I could always sulk in my room and think about how much life sucks but that's not going to do anything. It'll only make myself feel worse and looked down upon to outside parties. So I'm going to be productive today. It'll make me feel better actually doing something and think about the task at hand. I'll concern myself only in the present and not think or involve myself in the past or future. 

This was not in any way posted to make you feel sorry for me. I needed an outlet to just vent about my situation and eventually forget about it because I know no one will have the patience to listen. I will now move on to better things and not worry about this whole mess. 

...why do bad happenings always come after such wonderful ones?

The End.

A night of epic fail followed by a day of instant win.

So the title is pretty apt in describing the past...20 hours?

As I mentioned previously, I went to see the advance screening of Twilight with my close friends (it was actually 3 friends, not 2. My mistake). Anyway, the movie was starting at 10 and we got there at about 8. There weren't many in the line when we got there. As we waited in line, we were getting more and more excited to see something we've been waiting for since the beginning of summer. I thought I'd document what we looked like when we were in line:

Sorry for the blurriness. But you can still see how happy we were BEFORE watching the movie.

Alright, it's ranting time. Overall, I felt this movie was a poor representation of the book. It didn't do it justice at all. It was just unfortunate that we had to wait so long to see something that was, for lack of a better word, a failure. The advertisements for this film were so convincing. I suppose they hired a really good advertiser... Well, graphic design is all smoke and mirrors, at least that's what I've been taught. 

The actors for the most part, played a mediocre performance with the exception of a few. When the list of actors were announced during the summer, I was somewhat disappointed.. and that was just by looking at them. I still had one more ounce of hope that their acting abilities would somehow neutralize my misconceptions. Unfortunately, the film just confirmed my doubts.  I think I was most upset with Robert Pattison as Edward Cullen. I thought he was good as Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter... but, unfortunately not as stellar in Twilight. He barely spoke and his words seemed as if they were being forced from his lips. There wasn't much dialogue between himself and Bella.. probably due to the fact that he couldn't conceal his English accent for long periods of time. 

The scenes were often choppy and many parts occurred in places different from the novel. That upset me a bit. Also, the scenes that should have been illustrated beatifully again failed to look that way on the screen and certainly not as beautifully as I pictured in the novel. I know you can't really make it look exactly like it would in the book, but you could at least try. Come on, in the 1970's special effects weren't as up to par as it is now and Star Wars still looks more professional than some of the films we see now. Especially this one. I felt like the viewer couldn't truly believe what was happening. As the film went on, I started lose interest because it was so bad. So much could have been done  with this film and it honestly pains me to write this. 

I suppose I'll stop on this subject for now or else I'll be in front of my computer forever. 

Oh, and to juxtapose the feelings of excitement and happiness, here's another picture I took: 

I'm pretty sure that our faces were permanently fixed like that for the whole movie.

My other friend who watched the movie with us. The face he's making in this photo was the face that Robert Pattison had throughout most of the movie.

Alright, onto happier things. When I got home yesterday (I suppose this is the exception to the night of epic fail), two of my pen pals talked to my on msn. One was kind of creepy... but the other one was really, really cool. It's pretty funny because both are 21-year-old males living in Osaka even weirder, both of their names started with "K". So I'll talk about the cool pen pal... I don't want to think about the other one. So, in one of his emails, he was telling me that he was kind of shy and didn't talk much unless he got to knew the person well enough. But on msn, we were talking like we already knew each other pretty well. Not awkward at all. I discovered he can speak French and we were talking to each other in french for a while. I love conversations like that. Hopefully this pen pal won't ditch me... quite a few have already. 

Another happy thing! My friend and I made a layered cake this afternoon. We were making it for 2 our friends' birthday get-together tomorrow. We went to the supermarket to pick up a few things and went back to make the cake at her house. It was so awesome. I love how baking makes you so much happier. While the cake baked and cooled, we would just hang out and talk about stuff. After that, we started decorating it. That was pretty much it. Although it may not seem like much, making that cake today was really, really fun. It was definitely a good way to clear our negative images of the Twilight Movie. I really hope our friends like it.

So I thought I'd share what this epic cake looked like:

Before icing the cake. We put strawberry jam between the two layers.~

After a few layers of icing.~

After covering the cake with strawberries.~

Aerial View!~

So yeah, we're going to bring this to our little birthday get-together. I still need to make a card for the two of them. I need to think of something really awesome. I'm pretty excited for tomorrow because I haven't gone downtown in a while. Tomorrow is basically downtown exploration day. We'll have a day pass, so I'm sure we'll definitely explore for as long as possible. I'm pretty sure tomorrow we'll all go cosplay crazy. I also hope I can get some art supplies and try out some stuff for Anime North.

And I think I'll stop here. This entry is getting pretty long as it is. 

The End.

All that worrying for nothing.

I suppose I'm due for an update. 

I wish I could tell you that I've been so busy with assignments and other things but I'm afraid I can't do that. I've been getting more and more lazy as the weeks have gone on. I would really like school to start up sometime soon. Wow, I didn't think I'd ever say that. I suppose because I'm actually paying thousands of dollars to get to class. 

So, what made me and other people in my program luckier than most students was, we still had classes at Sheridan on Wednesdays. I think that was the one thing preventing me from being a total procrastinator. However, the last class was yesterday. I'm scared. 

Oh, I thought I'd post something my friend put on my facebook wall.  He's in  the same program as I am and... in third year right now. I met him at work. Last year, I recall one time he told me that he had so much work to do and he "felt like [he] wanted to curl up into a ball and die". Very funny, melodramatic Russian man. I am convinced that this is one of the longest, depressing messages I've gotten from him:

Remember when I mentioned that design essay I was freaking out about? We got them back yesterday. I was honestly thinking I was going to fail... or at least barely scrape a passing grade. Mind you, I didn't get a stellar mark, but it was way better than failing. I got a 75. I literally danced in the lecture hall. I'm so lame. 

Nothing much has been going on... I suppose because I've become like a hermit in my own room. I've slowly progressed with school work but my days tend to consist of watching asian dramas and anime. So far, I've finished Absolute Boyfriend, and I think I'll aim to finish 1 litre of tears. I didn't expect to cry watching Absolute Boyfriend but I did. I literally had a pile of tissues next to me. What's with me and watching sad dramas? I guess it's a way for me to relief stress. Just like how I'm writing in this blog right now. 

On a side note, I started watching Absolute Boyfriend before my friend and I went to Japan. I think I watched about... 1-2 episodes and I wasn't really into it. But, I was kind of interested because of the secondary character (Soshi) was played by Hiro Mizushima. He was also in Hana Kimi and yeah, I love him. What is really funny is the fact that my friend and I saw a Hiro Mizushima look-alike at the Pearson and Narita airport. After that, I got Asian boy-crazy and bought too many idol magazines. I miss Japan now... *sigh*.

Oh yeah, my friend managed to get some pictures of him. He was actually sitting pretty close to us in the waiting area at Narita Airport (for your reference, I'll put up a picture of the actual actor. XD):

So the pictures above are from the airport (0bv)... haha.

And here's the real actor! Freaky, n'est-ce pas?

On another happy note, I'm going to watch the Twilight movie tonight with 2 of my really good friends!  It's an advanced screening, I feel so special. I'm so excited right now. It's not even funny. I think we're all going to squeal like fangirls in the theatre. I'm sure of it. I'm pretty sure we're going to dress up. The thing is, we can't seem to find any fake fangs. My friend already called a bunch of costume shops and the only ones they have are $30. No thank you. I'm sure fake blood, pale make up and dark circles around our eyes will suffice. It's a shame that the costumes for this book/movie aren't as elaborate as say, Harry Potter. We would be more recognizable that way. Oh well. I hope we won't get mistaken for cannibalistic goth kids or something. I'll be bringing my camera, so I'll be sure to post some pictures! 

Hm... so this past weekend my sister came to visit. And she's trying to get me into more Korean bands. She made me download every Big Bang song. I am now obsessed with "Haru Haru". XP

And that's about it, I'll update asap! I'll have a bunch to talk about as the week comes to a close.

Alright, entry: done.

The End. 

You smile like a saint, but you curse like a sailor.

Lately my journal titles are taken from song lyrics. I'm so original.

So the past few days have been okay. Friday, I actually did some exercise. I used to do it pretty often last year. When I started it up again, I wasn't used to it anymore (obviously). I really need to do that more often. I'm going to try my best to commit to it. I've also been eating a lot healthier lately. Tonight, I think I had a serving of vegetables that would constitute for a week. I'm so glad my mom can make vegetables taste good. I actually just had that for dinner. I remember as a kid I wouldn't even touch those things. Interesting. 

Also, I actually got some work done! I'm considering this to be such a great accomplishment because this strike is making me a lazy cow. I'm not completely finished my assignments, mind you, but I would really like to get them out of the way by next Saturday. I'm thinking... I won't go out until Thursday night. I really need to get work done... I can't allow myself to procrastinate so much that I'll be having a mental breakdown. If the strike is resolved, we'll get probably 2 days' warning at the most. I think I'll use this strike as an opportunity to get my act together. I was wishing all year that I could have some time to catch up on assignments, exercise, work on things for AN and just... organize my life. I remember reading someone's comment on a blog concerning the strike, "you should turn crisis into an opportunity... crisitunity!" 

So I have an ear infection. Now, it's not that serious because there's two kinds: the inner ear infection and the outer ear, the outer ear being the least severe of the two and the the one that I tend to get often. I'm not too sure as to where I got it, but my sister (future doctor, btw) told me it could be my ipod earphones. She said there's bacteria everywhere, and well... I put that stuff in my ear. Which is kinda gross. But yeah. Maybe the fact that I listen to my music very loudly contributes to it too. So, I'm actually in a lot of pain. I woke up this morning, lying down on my side, and when I lifted my head, I felt a throbbing, stinging pain coming from the right side of my head. I downed a lot of advils after that. Okay... 2. 

So I went coat shopping with my sister and brother today. It was nice because all three of us got to spend some time together. The objective of today? Get a coat and boots for my sister and get myself some gloves. Unfortunately, my sister didn't end up getting a coat or boots... and I didn't get any gloves. I still have till Wednesday since I don't plan to go out till then. My hands are going to disintegrate into crushed ice pellets if I don't get gloves soon. 

And so now... I'm procrastinating yet again. I'm currently looking at my assignments with contempt. I'll try to pry myself from my keyboard and get to doing something worthwhile. It's not like I'm actually doing anything of importance right now. 

Alright, so onward to my sad attempts at working and my endurance of the annoying pain possessing my right ear.

The End.

Truth be told, I'm lying.

So today wasn't productive at all.

I was actually supposed to be out with some friends, but unfortunately, that didn't happen. I don't want to complain about how much my parents (or at least one of them) sucks and how much my life sucks because it'll just be a waste of energy. I just wish my dad was a jerk before I got ready to go out... that's 60 minutes of my life I won't get back. 

I tried to see ways I could take advantage of the time I had... I think the most productive thing I did today was make a list of productive things to do. Well, I did take care of a few stray things. Like email back my penpals and organize my safari bookmarks. I didn't really touch my outstanding assignments... I guess I'll try to force myself to get things done tomorrow. I hope I can wake up early enough. 

What else did I do with my day? Well, after an hour of listening to screamo really loudly, I mainly browsed the internet and watched Japanese dramas. I'm currently watching 1 Litre of Tears. It's based on a true story about a 15-year-old girl who is diagnosed with a disease called Cerebellar Degeneration disease. It mainly affects the spinal cord and cerebellum basically causing the person to slowly lose control of their movement and speech. The drama documents how the girl copes with the disease. It's really, really sad. I tend to cry a lot during dramas... but usually at the end. I've cried for every episode of this one and I just started it. 

...And that is how my day was spent. 

I've been thinking a lot about losing weight. No, I'm not anorexic. Actually, far from it. I'm just concerned right now. I know I can't miraculously become skinny by doing nothing. I think I'll make some sort of plan. Hopefully I'll commit to it... unlike my attempts at doing homework. 

Anyway, I guess I'll be off. Back to my nonproductiveness. 

The End. 

The Aftermath

What a creative title.

Anyway, I guess I'm feeling some sort of "hangover" from my midterm yesterday. It actually wasn't too bad. I think I did well enough to pass. That's all I'm aiming for, really. I'm not really into describing every minute detail of the past two days because I haven't had my coffee yet (and yes, I know it's almost 1PM). 

The preparation for this midterm was certainly half-hearted. I procrastinated from Thursday up until Monday night. Tuesday, I was planning to go to the library, but found that I had no money or bus tickets to get home. So I decided to stay home. I put my laptop in my basement to avoid distraction. It proved useful... kind of. I studied for about 7 hours.. well, the time in between I would doodle. At about 11PM, I retrieved my laptop and obsessed over SHINee with my friend until 2AM.  I planned to cram my notes before class.

After my test I couldn't speak coherent sentences for at least an hour. I couldn't even type properly when I was on the computer. I'm so brain dead. I woke up this morning practically exhausted. I have no idea. I had literally a 5 hour nap and I slept for more than 9 hours. Did I over sleep? Maybe my body's getting used to not sleeping? I have no idea. 

Hm... just a thought. Do you ever feel like you're only somewhere because it's convenient for the next person? Like, if you were to hang out with someone, it's not because they actually want you there, but because they just need someone to hang out with? So essentially, do you sometimes feel used and can't really do anything about it? I hate that feeling. You're frustrated, and you feel like such an idiot for letting it happen. That person assumes that you'll always bend over backwards to whatever they decide. The decision is usually already made and you're hanging there weary and confused. You wonder why you didn't refuse and you realize that your kindness is taken advantage of.  Yet there's nothing you can do about it sometimes because you've already accepted. Now you're there like a sitting duck getting ready to be shot. Great. 

Wow. I'm bitter without my coffee. I guess I should get some... or else I'll be biting some heads off. 

The End. 

Hey, shouldn't you be studying?

Yes, yes I should. 

I have a midterm on Wednesaday and I have yet to fully study and understand my readings. Again I am experiencing that eery calmness that I often get in high-stress situations. I had Thursday, Friday and all weekend to prepare and in total I've only read 2 pages of one reading. I have made slow progress. Instead of doing what I was supposed to do, I started watching asian music videos and anime. I am currently watching Kuroshitsuji and Soul Eater. I really should get up to date on D. Gray-man. I am cosplaying a character from that show, after all. 

Let me talk about which asian music videos I was watching. In particular I was watching Arashi and SHINee. Which I have become more obsessed with as the weekend passed. Arashi had recently released a new single which one of my friends showed me the night the strike was announced. It's called Beautiful Days, if you want to check it out. I am now obsessed with that song. Since then I have tried to download almost every album and single Arashi has released... I had to make some space on my computer. 

So another obsession I've been having is SHINee. It's a fairly new Korean group that debuted in May. The members range from ages 15-18. So, not to sound like a pedophile, but Taemin (the 15-year-old) is so cute. I'd have to say my favorites are Key, Taemin and Jonghyun. This may be confusing if you don't know the members' names, so I have provided a visual so you can swoon over them as well:

Aren't they beautiful? I'm still surprised I haven't gotten a nosebleed yet. 

But yeah, my friend and I are SUPER obsessed with them right now. Well, we were obsessed with them when they first came out. In yearbook class, we would go on youtube and watch their videos. I guess it's a fluctuating obsession? But wow. I love beautiful asian boys. I think this was further amplified when I went to Japan in the summer. So many of them. I'm still recovering... well, not really recovering but, I just can't seem to like someone who isn't asian. Oh man...

So speaking of liking people... I think I've given up on Jimmy. I recall in a conversation with my friend that I said, "pfft, Jimmy. SHINee > Jimmy". Haha.  I'm starting to think this was another one of those crushes where people tell you things and you start to believe them. Okay, it definitely was one of those crushes. I really shouldn't force things... Other things have brought me to the conclusion that not getting a boyfriend would be best for now. I've been extremely busy with school work and well, other things. I've also realized, based on recent events, that my friends are one of the most important things in the world to me and I don't want to jeopardize my relationship with them in any way. Some people I know have revolved their lives around their boyfriends and have neglected their friends a great deal. I mean, it's good you're in love and everything, but don't lose sight of things that matter. For all you know, this person could break up with you any given day and then what? You'll end up with nothing. I know this isn't the case with every relationship, I'm just speaking of what is currently going on with people I know.... and that's what I'm afraid of. 

So I'm certain I've gained weight. I've decided today that I really need to do some exercise and go on some sort of diet or something. Well, I've been planning to lose some weight for my cosplay since the character is basically a STICK. I'm planning to set aside some time in my schedule to exercise so then I won't hate myself because right now, I do. SHAWN. T! I NEED YOU!

Okay, time to ACTUALLY STUDY. I was supposed to go to the library today... and I woke up late, again. I woke up 2 today. Oh joy. I'm planning to get as much as possible done today and then it's off to library tomorrow at 10AM. I need a nice, quiet place where I'm forced to read and learn. 

Okay, time to do some work!... Maybe after a few SHINee videos. Wow, I'm such a failure. 

The End. 

At this rate, the thought of passing is being ambitious.

Wow, don't I sound pessimistic.

I'm obviously not studying, so I figured I'd post... again. I have read a total of one paragraph since the last time I posted. Well, I did  clean 75% of my room. I call it "power cleaning" you know... like "power napping"? I try to clean what's absolutely necessary. So it's clean.. but not as clean as it can be. I can now see my floor and desk, so that's okay for now. Hurray!

I have gone on a downloading spree. I downloaded a bunch of Arashi albums and some other artists that were recommended to me by the site. So... I downloaded like... 10+ albums. I'm going to need an external hard drive soon. Really.

Wow. Set-up friend and I are having a pretty intense conversation. She told me how she's decided to be straight-edge. Which is awesome. I guess I consider myself to be that way too. I hate the whole idea of having your mind clouded by some substance and then having no control of your actions. I hate being taken advantage of. I mean, if you do that stuff, that's your decision. I just prefer not to. 

I'm planning to wake up early... *crosses fingers* Well, mostly because I didn't study today.. and also, I need to get a hold of my dad so he can give me money to pay for the ski trip. I was supposed to give the money today... but my dad went to work really early. 

Alright, back to procrastination.

The End.

 

We hold our breath and fold our hands like paper planes.

Again, the procrastinating part of my brain has taken over my initiative to work. 

I know there's work that needs to be done... but I still put it off. Ironically enough, one of my friends sent me an email about time management. As previously mentioned, although my school is in lockdown due to the strike, I still have to go Oakville for classes. What's scary is that I have a "test on readings". More like, a midterm exam. It's the only test my class has had. Apparently it's worth 35% of my mark. Oh joy. 

Do you ever feel like there's so much to do and it's so overwhelming that your body just shuts down sometimes and tries to avoid it? I think that's how I am right now. I'm scared of failing my midterm... but I just can't bring myself to study. I know, however, if I leave it to the night before, I'll probably cry. 

So I haven't  been productive at all during this time off. I really need to take this to my advantage. If I somehow get my act together, I'm going to try to finish the projects that were assigned. The classes will resume right where we left them so if I get everything done, I can have time to do other things.

Speaking of other things, I really need to draw.... and sculpt? I'm  selling stuff at Anime North with a friend and I'm really, really excited. I need to find time to make the stuff we're planning to sell. Oh the pressures of higher education. So far, I've made literally 2 drawings. One of which is the improved version of this little guy:

I've started listening to the music I used to listen to religiously throughout high school all over again. I feel all nostalgic and surprised that I still remember the lyrics to the songs.

Oh, so I had a driving lesson yesterday. It was weird because I usually get a 2 hour lesson every other week, but for some reason, I had a lesson the week after my last one. So I got my instructor into City & Colour. He liked it so much that we was practically blasting it in the car. I didn't mind. Yesterday, I got to drive on the highway. It was actually pretty scary. I think I wouldn't have been freaking out if I got some sort of warning prior to turning into it. Basically, my instructor was like, "okay... not turn here.... we're going on the highway." I went, "WHAT?!? WHY?!?!" and he was like, "oooooh, don't worry, it's only a small highway." Do I was going down the ramp and waited for the light to change to get onto the highway. While I was waiting, I saw all the cars just zooming past me. I was freaking out. Holy crap.

I really think I should do some sort of exercise more often. I feel really, for lack of a better word, fat. Do you ever have those days where you just feel that way? I've been neglecting poor Shawn T in my basement. 

Look at him, all happy and flamboyant, determined to get you awesome abs. hahahaha.

As you can see, I'm totally procrastinating. I really need to study... and clean my room. I think I'll clean my room. I don't want to kill myself yet. 

The End. 

I'm not that dumb, but I can pretend.

Alright, second post today. I suppose I'll start it with a rant. 

Those of you who have older siblings... do you ever feel like they try way too hard to act like they're your parents? Well, I don't know if that happens to everyone, but it happens to me... way too often. My reason for such a statement? My older sister. I seriously think her alter ego is "paranoid, overprotective, retard mother figure". For a really long time, my sister convinced my mom that snowboarding is the most dangerous thing in the world. She recalled the story of her idiotic friend that broke his leg and said that I would too. My mother agreed with her for a few years. I think the only reason I'm allowed to go on the ski trip now was due to the fact that I asked my parents when my sister was away at school. Hm... I haven't mentioned to her that I'm going. I'll leave it that way. 

So remember when I said my professor added me on facebook? I nonchalantly mentioned this to my sister. Her reaction? In short, she freaked out. She was telling me that I should make sure my wall and pictures are blocked so that he doesn't see them. She was talking to me as if I get drunk and dress like a skank... then post it on facebook to document how messed up I am. Wow, thanks sis, I didn't know you thought so highly of me. For some reason, she always has to think she's right. She's way too proud and it's quite irritating. You can't have a proper conversation with someone who continuously insists they're right and imposes these things on you. You're basically talking to the person instead of with. Anyway, just blocked her on msn. I've been doing that a lot lately. I should just leave her blocked. 

So I'm listening to UnderOATH right now. One of the bands I imported to itunes. This was my favorite band in high school. I forgot how much I liked them. Anyway, their music is very helpful right now (i.e. helpful in making sure I don't punch a hole in the wall).  UnderOATH is a post-hardcore band. There's a mixture of screaming and singing which I think works really, really well. I love this band. So good. 

Today was definitely not a work day even though I was hoping it would be. The only thing I accomplished was importing more than 20 CDs to my itunes. I need an external hard drive. Gah. I think I'll work on some stuff tomorrow before my driving lesson. I was extremely bored when I got home. I really could have used that to my advantage today. It'll probably be the same thing for the whole weekend. I can't allow myself to go out.... need to catch up on work and study. Great. 

Okay, rant: done. Update: done. 

The End. 

Strike!

So I'm at home when I should be in class. Last night, a bunch of were anxious as we waited for midnight to come. My university is officially in lockdown because of the strike. I'm actually glad I didn't have to go to school today because I had a major project due which I think could use some improving. I have about 41 pages of process work for this project and that's only half of the assignment. This assignment's worth 35% of my mark so I need to make it awesome. 

So what did I do with my free time, you ask? I visited my old high school today. Well, my friend was passing by to collect money for our ski trip and I thought I'd tag along. So we were talking to one of our friends for quite a while. After that, we went to visit our yearbook teacher. He was in a bad mood today. He basically insulted my school and everyone that goes there. Ah, more like the teacher I had last year. 

We went to the mall after that and looked at snowboards. There was the most awkward guy there that went to talk to us. He was trying to make small talk and it just wasn't working for him. My friend and I were thinking, "oh gawd, leave us alone...."  After that, we just hung out for a while before going home. 

Today was another unseasonably warm day. It honestly felt like summer... so hot. 

The road near my neighborhood is under construction which makes it really difficult to go... ANYWHERE. I get so paranoid walking around that area because I think I'll get hit by a truck. Anyway, I couldn't take the shortcut to my house because they were paving the road. I walked about... 40 minutes to get home. It wasn't too bad because it wasn't freezing. Plus I need some exercise... so it proved beneficial. 

So now I'm home. I'm probably going to finish up the assignment that was due today. I really have nothing to do except homework. I think I'll make a list of all the possible things I could do that I've neglected... like cleaning my room and getting my whole act together. 

One of my professors just added me on facebook. Weird. It's funny because I was talking about him with my friends today. Just so you know, he is AWESOME. I would have had him for two classes (i.e. 8 hours) today. Yes I am in love with him. Okay, not that extreme. More like, in awe of him? hahaha. 

The procrastinating part of my brain is taking over. I was looking through my old pile of CDs and now I'm importing some of them into itunes. Oh wow, how I've missed listening to Nirvana. Kurt Cobain! HEART! I have, about.. 20 CDs worth of music I'm going to import. I think I'll delete the songs I never listen to. Sound good? I have all day. 

Okay, so that's about it. Perhaps another post will follow later tonight. 

The End. 

Crossing Fingers

So I had to go to Oakville today. A few people didn't attend class because of this "Day of Action" event where students are protesting to drop tuition fees. I'm all for it, but I need to go to class. We basically got the list of things we need to know for our 'kind of' midterm. I got 3 hours of sleep last night... It's usually enough... but today, it wasn't.  I was trying so hard not to fall asleep in class today. I was writing notes to my friend next to me, which helped. Oh, in the middle of lecture today, the fire alarm came on. We slowly evacuated the building... I think it was a drill. We only stayed outside for 10 minutes at the most and continued with class. Once class was over, a bunch of us went to the computer lab and printed out the readings we should have had done. I'll need to do some hardcore studying this weekend. My midterm is next Wednesday and I really need to do well. I know I bombed that essay because of my intense procrastination and I have to pick up the slack. I guess that's something I really like about University. There's always a chance to redeem yourself because everything is weighted so heavily. 

I'm planning to do some work today. I need to get a type project and visual language thing done for tomorrow. I'm going to try to get a lot done today. I'm probably not going to sleep much. What makes me really happy right now is the the fact that on Indesign, I can export things to PDF and print it off my PC. That means I might actually get the chance to sleep in tomorrow. Last week was... crazy. Okay, a contradiction to my previous statement. I'm going to get done what I absolutely need to have done tonight and then I'll check the York website at midnight to see if the school is on strike. If they are, I'm going to sleep. haha. 

So Jimmy wasn't in class today. He decided to skip because people were going to that "Day of Action" today. As soon as I get on the bus, I saw set-up friend and she went, "yeaaah, Jimmy's not here..." Aw man. 

Alright, so I'm getting more convinced not to have a boyfriend. Not only do I not have the time, but if I had one, I wouldn't get any work done. Case in point: remember those two people in my program that got together? Apparently they don't even get any work done in the labs. All they do is make out. Ew. Do they have no shame? I mean, yeah you can do that... just not in public. Especially in a place where people need to get work done. You're not only distracting people, but you're also making them uncomfortable. The computer isn't your house where you can fool around wherever the hell you want. I mean, if I had a boyfriend I would be way too embarrassed to pull something like that. *shudders* I think the most I would do in public would be hugging and hand-holding. Anything beyond that is just... guh. 

Okay, so I need to get work done. I'll keep you up to date!

The End.

P.S. So the U.S. federal Election was yesterday (old news, I know) and Barack Obama won! Not only did he win, he totally dominated. Awesome job. It's really amazing how last night, we all witnessed something historical. Obama became the first black President, which is pretty extraordinary. It shows how much progress we've made since the civil rights movement, where black people didn't even have the right to vote. It's also amazing how people around the world are affected by this. I'm not even American and I'm in awe. It's good to see that a positive change has finally taken place. Hopefully the mess Bush made the past eight years will finally get cleaned up. I think I'll leave it at that for now, because I'm getting all riled up and I can talk about this topic for hours. So long!

I'm so grateful to be nowhere...

So my title has nothing to do with my entry... well, it might. It's from the song "Hateful" by The Clash. I'm really getting into punk again. It's crazy. I think I'm having a phase because I was into Jpop, Jrock and Kpop at the beginning of the year and all of a sudden bam! Punk makes a comeback into my playlist. haha. I think it might be the stress I've been having at school/not school. I guess I need some sort of outlet to release all my built up agression. Come to think of it, listening to The Distillers makes me a bit better...

My attempt at waking up early failed... again. Well, mind you, it wasn't entirely my fault. My brother walked into my room this morning at about... 7:45AM, woke me up and took my house keys. Now, being disturbed from my once pleasant sleep made me cranky and all I could think of was how angry I was... and a slur of profanities soon ensued. 

So I eventually got up at 11AM which wasn't bad since my class started at 2:30PM. I spent about and hour fixing up the report I should have had done the night before. I know, total procrastination. Then I got ready and headed for a crowded bus to get to school. 

Today was really, really nice. According to the weatherman it was about 20 degrees outside. It felt like summer today. So the bus was a little late and I had to rush to class. That, plus the hot weather made me a little uncomfortable. 

So lecture was pretty boring. When I feel like I'm going to fall asleep, I try to write down as much as possible... so then I can keep myself awake. I don't like sleeping in class because I find that to be really disrespectful to the professor. So for tutorial, which happened shortly after, we got group projects. The group I had DID NOT TALK. It was so awkward between all of us. I would try talking to people... but it would still be extremely awkward. I don't know what the big deal is, we just need to get the project done. End of story. 

So I saw two of my friends once I got out of tutorial. Er.. set up friend + other friend? I really should make up some temporary names. Anyway, I walked set up friend to her bus stop and waited with her until her bus came. We just talked about certain stuff and I was telling her, "hm.. maybe I'll sit with you guys in class tomorrow" and she goes, "oh and Jimmy" Yes, I shall refer him to Jimmy to avoid confusion. Anyway, it always has the tendency to go back to him somehow. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, apparently lots of people are getting set up with Jimmy well, more like... 2: myself and set-up girl's cousin. Set-up girl's mom apparently tried to set  them up but I think to no avail. I won't go into details. Anyway, I'm not so sure about this whole thing anymore because of this whole stress plus homework thing. I think I don't have time for a boyfriend. I think I would be constantly neglecting them if I ever got one. It would be unintentional of course... but it would happen. Well, then again, if we were in the same program, same amounts of work and we would understand the pressures of our respective programs. I don't know, pros and cons on both options. I feel a little indifferent about it right now, which I think would be best. That way, I don't/won't expect anything and that way, I can be more pleasantly surprised. 

So it's two days until a potential strike. I think we won't know if there will be one for sure until it actually happens, which is 12:01AM on Thursday. I'm going to get my work done just in case and you know, if I have the work done and there is a strike, I won't have to worry about it later on. 

Okay, so with that said, I'll take off and do some work... *sigh*

The End.

P.S. I saw one of those real estate ads on a bus while I was getting to class. They had the slogan in COMIC SANS. That is like, typeface blasphemy... and the fact that it was on something as big as a bus makes me want to cry.

The sky is deeper than the truth.

Today started in the afternoon. Yes, I woke up 2:20PM today. I had a class at 4, so I kind of rushed to get ready. I was expecting to get to leave my house at 3:05 but due to much nagging from my dad, I left 5 minutes later. I literally watched the bus pass me as I was walking. So I had to wait another 15 minutes for the next bus to come and got to school 10 minutes before class started. Luckily my friend saved me a seat. I really wished I had a chance to get a coffee before class because that lecture was BORING. My friend fell asleep twice and I had to buy m&ms to stay awake. So we tend to leave the class around 6... but today the professor decided to cover a topic for next week just in case of a strike. Oh joy. Well, at least I know why my friend's mohawk changes from blue to purple now. METAMERS!!!

So I'm procrastinating yet again. I have to fix up a report for one of my classes and I want a great deal of my typography homework done today. I'm expecting to sleep at 3AM today.. wake up at 10AM and then go class at 2. Sounds good? 

Nothing much really happened today besides that. 

Well, I guess I'll post some random thoughts I've been having. It's a change from the endless drone of daily activities I discuss. So by some observation, I want to know why people change their demeanor depending on who they talk to. I mean, if you really want someone to be your friend, shouldn't you just try to be yourself? If you have to change yourself in order to be that person's friend, then they don't deserve to have you as a friend. Wow, getting redundant. I guess that's the result of writing down anything that comes to your head. Well, that's really what's been bothering me lately. Why is it so important to be liked by everyone? It reminds me of that episode of Recess where T.J. finds out that Gordie doesn't like him. T.J. then tries his hardest to make Gordie like him. He puts all this energy into it but to no avail. At the end of the episode, Gordie still doesn't like T.J. So, what I got from that episode was, not everyone's going to like you (well, the real you anyway...). Well, that and the fact that you should save your energy and spend it on other things. So yeah, random observations and my take on it. I guess this is a rant. 

So I should start working... I'm such a failure. 

The End.   

Utterly lazy.

I'm currently sitting idle in my room, watching my computer screen. 

2.5 hours ago, I went to my cousin's baptism. It was pretty good. We got to the church about 20 minutes late.. but somehow, we made it just in time for the climax: that actual baptizing. Anyway, after that, we got to the Mandarin restaurant 30 minutes early. We stayed in the car for about 20 minutes because I had to wrap the present. Once we got in, my godfather, his wife, my uncle and his wife joined us at the table. It was kind of strange because they were actually talking to me. I mean before, they would talk to me.. but it would be really strained and awkward; like they were talking to me because they were my relatives and they had to. This time was different, we actually talked for long periods of time.. and it wasn't awkward at all. Well, the exception of all of that awkward stuff was my godfather's wife. She's so cool. haha. 

So I didn't eat since 12 today because we had to go to church, then go straight to the baptism. As soon as we got the "ok" to go eat, I ate... a lot. I was pretty shocked. As the party was ending, I got to carry my god sister for a while. It was funny because my godmother was holding her, and when her daughter saw me, she was holding out her arms to me. It was interesting because as I was holding her, she was so relaxed. You know how babies tend to move around and try to point and grab at stuff? She was totally chilled out. I love that kid, she's so cute. So I was holding her for a really long time and I didn't even realize that my parents already left the restaurant, waiting in the car. They had to call my brother to let us know. 

Something weird but totally awesome just happened. So the other day, I had to go to school really early to print out a bunch of stuff. The thing is, I couldn't find my card access key... and I was panicking a little. I would have to pay some replacement fee. Luckily someone was in the lab to open the door for me. Anyway, I was mildly freaking out the whole weekend. I was about to clean up my room to look for it...and what's weird is, I find the lanyard with the access key attached hanging off my doorknob. I have a feeling someone found it for me because it was hanging outside of my door. Thank God. 

There isn't really much to say... I'm really, really lazy. I've been sitting in front of my laptop for.. 3 hours now? I have some work to do.. but I'm thinking I'll do it tomorrow before my class at 4. Oh, so the TAs at my school are planning to vote for  the strike this Wednesday. If they vote to have a strike, there won't be any classes on Thursday. Not only does it suck that I might have part of my semester dragged into May.. but I also have to go to Oakville on Wednesdays still. Furthermore, the bus stops at York won't have busses passing through.. we'll have to find another stop to go to. It wouldn't suck as much if it wasn't freezing... but it is. So it sucks big time. 

So I really want a snowboard now. I've been looking at boards and stuff.. and I feel like a total poser. haha. I really need a job. That way, I can buy one and not be n00b. I'm soooo excited for the trip! 

Oh, I just remembered. It seems everyone wants to get me drunk. 

I was talking to my friend on msn and he was telling me that I should go visit him in Ottawa if my school goes on strike. Then, he said that he'll get my drunk like crazy. The day before that, my friend's boyfriend said that him and I should go drinking together and do some vodka shots.. which is really funny cause he's Russian. I don't drink much... actually I rarely do. If I were to go drinking with either one of them I'd probably throw up after 3 drinks. 

Well, I'll just finish up here. Back to procrastination.

The End. 

P.S. At Mandarin today, I was looking at those placemats that have pictures of drinks on them.. and the font was TERRIBLE. It looked like Arial i.e. poser Helvetica. Way too boxy. Made the place mat look... cheap. Hurray for typography rants!

P.S.S. I bought lottery tickets for my mom and I. I hope we win enough for a snowboard and gear. haha.

Interesting Incidents.

So I went to a little get together for my friend's birthday. 

I was supposed to meet up with my other friend where he worked. And oddly enough, birthday girl's  boyfriend was there. For some reason, he was really happy. He was telling me how he still has the little action figure I got him from Japan and how he's going to attach it to his bike. Well, at work, there was another girl working there. She was kind of... socially retarded. She would be totally random one time, and reeeeaaallyyy awkward the next. Anyway, my friend's boyfriend goes, "there's too many of [her name here]" *looks at me* "we need more [put my name here]...come back and work here again!!!" Then he went, "you know, I'm really glad you're going because there'll be people there that I don't know." After a while, when my friend was closing the store, he was telling me "wow... he's really happy today. It's weird. I think you should work here again." I find it kind of strange because I didn't really consider myself and that guy friends. More like coworkers that would fool around at work. 

Anyway, we went to eat at the Pickle Barrel where we got this British waiter. He was very... chatty. He would take our orders, then stand there and talk to us for a while. I was really hungry so I kept thinking dooood I want my fooood. Anyway, we had lotsa fun. We were basically laughing at random things and telling stories. I think we were a little too loud; the people who were at the table next us kept glaring at us. 

After eating at the restaurant, we went to the birthday girl's house. She opened her presents and we eventually watched The Dark Knight: bootleg version. I think only half of us watched the movie before. About halfway through the movie, birthday girl and my other friend fell asleep. What was funny was they were next to each other. We ended up taking a picture of them WITH THE FLASH ON and then eventually woke them up. 

You know what's also weird? I made friends with two of birthday girl's close friends tonight. The weird part was, I've been going to school with them for 4 years. One of them was even in my class. But yeah, apparently I'm hanging out with him again at the end of this month for his birthday. I guess we're friends. haha. 

But yeah, I'm going to Missisauga tomorrow for my cousin's baptism. I have no idea what to wear... I'll have to figure that out later. 

Oh, tomorrow, our classes will be set one hour back. Sweeet!

The End.

21st century digital boy.

So I haven't updated in a while... more like a few days, but it feels like forever considering I post 2 times a day. So this week is finally over. I'm surprised I managed to survive. To summarize, it was hell. Utter hell. I had 1-2 assignments due every single day. The hours of sleep I received dropped drastically with each passing day. 5..5..3..2. To tell the truth, I haven't been getting much sleep on the weekend either. I got home around 2:30AM last night.. but when I got home, I still couldn't sleep. I suppose when you sleep past 3AM throughout the week, your body gets used to it. I am sad to say that I have increased my caffeine intake from 2 cups a day to 3. Well, I'm guessing that an extra-large coffee (like a venti?) constitutes for 2 regular-sized cups. Second cup and the cafe in the TEL building will be very happy. 

Yesterday was Halloween. I went to a friend's party and it was really, really fun. I got to hang out with a bunch of old friends and it just felt really... good. So I saw one of friends at the party... and he was actually supposed to study at my school but changed his mind. He goes to school downtown. Now, in high school, he was such a social person. He was practically everyone's friend. But at his new school, he has no friends from his high school. He's really shy. I don't know, just thinking about that makes me really sad. When he was driving me home last night, he was telling me how much he misses all of us and how he's so happy that our other friend has all these get-togethers. He said if he ever gets a place downtown, he's going to make sure that we all visit him every weekend. haha. 

Random thought... I changed into my costume at my friend's house last night. I think I left my jeans there... either that or it's lost in my house... or in my other friend's car. But, my bag was closed the whole time except for at the house.. so it would be more likely to beat my friend's house. 

Anyway, I got a new coat today! It's really nice... but I might exchange it later. It seems to be a little long, but I'll test-wear it and see if it's worth keeping.  On a very positive note, I found that I have dropped two sizes! I'm thinking it's due to the lack of sleep this week as well as the weight I lost in Japan. I really need to set aside time to work out. I'm planning to lose a lot of weight for my cosplay in May. That and well... I want to be skinny. Japanese mentality has gotten to me. 

Oh, I went driving yesterday. I am proud to say that I am improving. I can park and drive properly now. I just really, really REALLY need to practice to get better. My dad's afraid of me now, though.. so that might be a problem. Apparently, I'm going over to my uncle's in Pickering next weekend. I'll be practicing all day? I really need to do it more than once a week though.. I want my G2 before Christmas.  Well, my last lesson is in two weeks.. so yeah. ahhh. 

Hm.. another point to my driving lesson which is kinda weird... So my instructor tends to talk to me while I drive. So at one point, he asked me if I had a boyfriend... and I told him I didn't. And he goes, "oh, why not? you're a nice girl." and I go, "well, some people (i,e; creepy people) like me.. but I don't like them." Well, that's more so the other way around... Ahhh unrequited love. Any way, what made it kind of awkward was "oh, so that means your a virgin, right?" and I was like, "uh.. yeah." O__O And he goes, "oh that's good." Very awkward. I have no idea where that came from, but I'll just not think about that. Anyway, we were talking about guitars and now I'm going to try to get my instructor into City & Colour. I get to listen to Dallas Green as I drive. Hurray!

So lately, I've had the urge to listen to punk. I just downloaded a bunch of Distillers music. That's weird because I was listening to them in grade 8. But yeah, Brody Dalle is so cool... despite the fact that she left her husband and got together with some other guy in another band... but yeah, her music's awesome. I've also been listening to Bad religion and the dropkick murphys. This is soooo nostalgic of grade 8. I love it. Mind you, I won't start dressing all punk again... that would be odd. I should dig up my old CDs. haha. 

Hm.. what else to talk about? I have many events to attend this weekend. I'm going to a birthday get-together in a few hours.. and then a baptism tomorrow afternoon. I'm thinking I should get some work done tomorrow night.. so I won't have to die during the week. Well, the craziness of last week is gone.. but I really should not slack off. Hopefully I can get my act together and my marks up. I know, apparently, marks don't matter but I'm asian and so, marks do constitute for something. I've been raised to live by this. 

I really can't wait till December. I've been thinking of getting a new job.. and I can probably hold it throughout the second semester since I have two days off each week. I really need the money... I feel so poor. Plus I want to help out my parents. They're paying for my sister's and my tuition. The fact that my sister has not gotten a job is quite surprising as well as annoying. And she has a place to herself which she is not paying for at all.  She seems to get things handed to her. Pretty spoiled in my opinion. 

Anyway, best be leaving. I have to get ready to leave in 30 minutes.

The End.