Anyway, I guess I'm feeling some sort of "hangover" from my midterm yesterday. It actually wasn't too bad. I think I did well enough to pass. That's all I'm aiming for, really. I'm not really into describing every minute detail of the past two days because I haven't had my coffee yet (and yes, I know it's almost 1PM).
The preparation for this midterm was certainly half-hearted. I procrastinated from Thursday up until Monday night. Tuesday, I was planning to go to the library, but found that I had no money or bus tickets to get home. So I decided to stay home. I put my laptop in my basement to avoid distraction. It proved useful... kind of. I studied for about 7 hours.. well, the time in between I would doodle. At about 11PM, I retrieved my laptop and obsessed over SHINee with my friend until 2AM. I planned to cram my notes before class.
After my test I couldn't speak coherent sentences for at least an hour. I couldn't even type properly when I was on the computer. I'm so brain dead. I woke up this morning practically exhausted. I have no idea. I had literally a 5 hour nap and I slept for more than 9 hours. Did I over sleep? Maybe my body's getting used to not sleeping? I have no idea.
Hm... just a thought. Do you ever feel like you're only somewhere because it's convenient for the next person? Like, if you were to hang out with someone, it's not because they actually want you there, but because they just need someone to hang out with? So essentially, do you sometimes feel used and can't really do anything about it? I hate that feeling. You're frustrated, and you feel like such an idiot for letting it happen. That person assumes that you'll always bend over backwards to whatever they decide. The decision is usually already made and you're hanging there weary and confused. You wonder why you didn't refuse and you realize that your kindness is taken advantage of. Yet there's nothing you can do about it sometimes because you've already accepted. Now you're there like a sitting duck getting ready to be shot. Great.
Wow. I'm bitter without my coffee. I guess I should get some... or else I'll be biting some heads off.
The End.
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