Confessions

So the next few lines may seem a bit ranty. I'll try my best to make this a a good read. But if my emotions take over, I'm sorry. I make no promises. 

Have you ever had that feeling when, through observing or experiencing something, you get shocked enough to change? I mean, it could be either witnessing something great or something utterly appalling. I think I had something like it today. Mind you, it wasn't something that was to the extreme like the two things mentioned. But at least I'm inspired to change. It came from a bad experience this afternoon. I don't want to get into much detail, but today, I realized that I don't want to be associated with the idiocy that some people in my family tend to possess. Yes, that may seem harsh, but after witnessing what happened today, I would think it would be pretty apt. 

It could of course be the anger talking right now. But I honestly could not believe how stupid people can be. What's worse, that stupidity was coming from people I'm related to. I can't stand that. I suppose impressions such as these tend to stick in my mind and irritate me to no end. I don't hold grudges, but I become weary based on passed experiences, I guess. 

It's so frustrating being a victim who's misunderstood and can't properly explain themselves because people are so stubborn and stuck in their tiny little worlds and refuse to listen to anything past that. I hate when people always have to insist that they have to be right. There's something called compromise and both parties should have a chance to express their views. I hate this whole idea of hierarchy. 

I guess I'll make myself that much better by not letting this experience hinder me. I could always sulk in my room and think about how much life sucks but that's not going to do anything. It'll only make myself feel worse and looked down upon to outside parties. So I'm going to be productive today. It'll make me feel better actually doing something and think about the task at hand. I'll concern myself only in the present and not think or involve myself in the past or future. 

This was not in any way posted to make you feel sorry for me. I needed an outlet to just vent about my situation and eventually forget about it because I know no one will have the patience to listen. I will now move on to better things and not worry about this whole mess. 

...why do bad happenings always come after such wonderful ones?

The End.