Tidal Wave.

I've been updating pretty frequently. I guess it's because of school. Lotsa stress and alot more things happening that I can ramble on about...

So I'm getting better! Thank God. I'm still coughing every now and then but I don't feel like dying anymore so it's all good.

School is moderately killing me. Well, I'm sure if I didn't procrastinate and sleep past midnight, I wouldn't be saying that. I suppose because I only have 3 days of class and a considerable amount of time for me to slack between each class. I really should be doing homework during that time... well, I need to get my priorities straight, really.

I've slowly but surely become obsessed with graphic novels. I need to look into some more stuff. I used to subtly appreciate the comic genre when I was a kid. Well... more like, I would watch X-Men and Spiderman on Saturday mornings. And I vaguely recall having a Batman action figure as my prized possession when I was four years old. I guess my obsession with the Watchmen film was kind of like a gateway into a pending obsession with comics. Too bad I didn't know enough when Fanexpo was in town. Oh wait... I spent practically $300 on stuff. Never mind.

Unfortunately my lack of funds can't really support my obsession at the time. So I'll just have to deal with borrowing some graphic novels from the library which surprisingly has A LOT of stuff.

I really need to learn how to save some money. I think I've been doing okay so far. There's little changes that I've been gradually making. Surprisingly I actually have cash in my wallet for more than one day. That's a good sign.

I'm still feeling funny about some stuff. And I don't mean because I'm sick. It's like I have this sense of defeat mixed with anxiety, anger, loneliness and doubt. Yeah, that about sums it up. I think things are changing too much or moving at a pace I can't catch up with. I've been feeling dissatisfaction with myself more than usual these days. Sometimes it's to the point that I can't sleep because I think about it so much. I'd like to talk about it but there's some things I just can't figure out yet. Pretty sure you need to figure things out before you make an attempt to explain them.

Anyways, need to do some homework... or something else.

The End.

Day Old Hate.

I hate how weak my immune system is.

So my sickness is fluctuating. At some times I think I'm getting better. And then right when that happens I get dizzy or it feel like I've swallowed a porcupine.

I need to call in sick to work. It's only a four hour shift but I feel really weak and stuff.

There's so many things I want to do today.. but it might take longer than I'd like it to be. It took me a good 8-10 hours to make about 40 paper sculptures. And it wasn't because they were so intricate or awesome or anything. After making about 5 at a time, I would get super dizzy and would have to lie down. Lame.

For some reason I'm not scheduled to work at all this week. I find it a little odd. I have a feeling my next paycheque is going to be really, really small.

Not too much to update on... short entry. Back to being sick.

The End.

Season.

Yeah sooo the past entries were pretty much my attempt at briefly cramming all that's happened in the past few days. I wanted to update but I had limited time to do so and that's why the entries have been quite short.

In other news, it seems that I am officially sick.

I don't think it's nothing too serious, just a cold. I think I caught it when I was up in Sheridan today. The air conditioning there makes the building feel like a freezer. On the bus ride home I felt like crap and basically couldn't breath. I also don't think it helped that I got very little sleep the past days. Hopefully some extra-strength neocitrin will be a big help.

I have so far drank 2 huge mugs of hot tea... and I've lost count of how many cough candies I've consumed.

I didn't end up meeting up with my ex-coworker today. I just felt so crappy that I didn't really feel like doing anything. I'm going to try and do some homework before I go to bed because I really, really need to.

So something's left me quite confused today. I'm not sure if that something was deliberate but well, if it is, then it's quite hypocritical to what that person had said just a short while ago. So I guess that feeling I had about people changing was quite spot-on. As far as I can see it, it isn't for the better.

What I've been noticing though is the fact that I'm feeling a lot closer to the people I haven't seen in such a long time. It makes me wonder why we even kept out of touch in the first place.

So... I suppose I need to get some work done. I hope I don't collapse or something.

The End.

The Airway.

I had my second class of the year today.

I was late by 5 minutes but the teacher didn't seem to care.

I ran into my old coworker at the library while looking up designers.

I'm lending him a book on typography.

Despite my efforts to procrastinate less, the internet and TV make such efforts futile.

I have so far cut out forty 4" x 4" squares.... now I have to make sculptures out of them by thursday.

I have 8 hours straight of classes tomorrow.

And I'll have to wake up at 5:30 in the morning. Oh joy.

My Clone High download has finally finished.

I haven't had the chance to watch any full episodes yet.

I am now somewhat obsessed with Owl City.

After many listens I find that he sounds like if Jack's Mannequin, HelloGoodbye and The Postal Service were put into a blender.

My diet and money-saving plan is working pretty well so far.

I actually haven't spent any money yet. That's actually really awesome.

I feel kind of odd. I don't know why.

Is this what change and self-discovery feels like?

I'm gonna pack up my stuff for school tomorrow now.

It's going to be a very long day.

The End.

Cave in.

School's started. I have to make quite a few paper sculptures for next thursday. So far I'm not feeling the pressure of second year in a graphic design program. I can't promise I'll be saying that next week.

I got home from a 7-hour shift at work about an hour ago. I'm working an 8-hour shift tomorrow... technically today.

I'm waiting for my download of Clone High Season one to finish.

I'm listening to the whole discography of Owl City... he kinda sounds like HelloGoodbye.

I need to lose weight. I'm dieting. My idea of going to a gym failed miserably.

I kinda have this weird feeling that everything and everyone is changing. Not sure if it's for the better yet.

The End.

Cookie Jar

Thought I'd update.

Nothing new has been happening lately. Work's been taking over my life again and I haven't had time to do the things I need to get done before summer's end. My room remains to be messy and my cosplay is only half-done. Hopefully today, I'll get a chance to do those things.

Besides work I've been reading alot. I've finished two out of the 5 books I wanted to have read. I'm half-way done Dreamland by Sarah Dessen... so 2.5 more to go...

I think I'm gonna get my hair cut and dyed pretty soon. My hair isn't looking that great these days.

My plan to go to the gym often and lose some weight has fallen through. I think I'm gonna quit soon before school starts. No use in paying for a facility I don't use. Work's been scheduling me alot.. and I've been taking shifts because I could always use the extra money. Especially since... in about 5 days, I'll probably blow tons of money on action figures and comic books.

I made some more of those "blue print" things for my room. This time, wall-by-wall. Still working on the second half of my room.

It's not realistic... but it's a good way to help me lay things out. Plus, it's actually pretty fun to make.

That's all that's been going on with me, I guess. Now to cleaning my room. Hopefully I don't give up this time.

The End.

Everything.

It's been about a week since I've went to the gym. Not good.

Well, it could be due to the fact that I was scheduled practically every single day at work last week. I worked a total of 21 hours this weekend alone. BTW, that's how many hours I'm supposed to have in an entire week. It's been really busy at work lately and I keep fluctuating between indifference and frustration. I'm not sure if Magenta's going to call... I had an interview over a week ago and I personally thought it went well. Just have to wait for head office to decide.

I keep putting off what I need to get done. I seriously need to get my room cleaned and organized before the summer ends. I made some overhead blueprint kinda things on illustrator to show what my room looks now and how I want it to look once I'm done with it.

Now...

Hopefully after...

There was also a list of books I wanted to have read too... but I'm not too sure if that'll happen. Especially since work is kicking my ass and the internet is an inevitable distraction. 

I'm thinking about applying for some bursaries. I'm not sure if I'm going to keep my job during the year because the work load is going to kill me. So I need to save as much money as possible and try to get as much money as possible. There's 4 bursaries that I'm thinking of applying for.. one requires a portfolio of 15 items... 2 others require an essay and then the fourth one requires either a poem or short story. Hopefully I won't be so utterly lazy and will follow through with them.

I really want to draw. Like, really. I also really want to make a painting on a huge canvas. I really miss doing stuff like that... I just need some supplies. 

I basically got half of my Rorschach cosplay done... I found the perfect trench coat and gloves at a thrift store and my friend is going to give me a brown fedora. I already bought one... but it would require me to paint it since it's black. So I'll just return it and get my $10 back. 

I need a haircut. And I need to re-dye my hair. It's all orangey and the layers are growing out. I guess I should get that done before school starts. So in like.. 2-3 weeks. I'm just not sure what colour to dye my hair. My roots have been growing out so I need to get a darker shade. 

This is what I had before... 

And the following are what I'm trying to decide between...

And yeah... that's basically about it. Nothing too exciting. Just a record of me not achieving my goals. 

The End.

Emerald Street.

So the frustration I discussed yesterday has spilled over to today. 

I've been up since 6:30AM and my day has already been ruined. 

As I'm getting ready to leave, my dad finds it oh-so-convenient to finally wake up and ask me a myriad of questions. All of which were repetitive, irrelevant and so very annoying. Because of this, I missed the bus by 2 minutes. The bus wasn't coming for another hour. An hour I could have used to be at the gym to work out. FML.

I've already had to compromise my time at the gym because of my parents' stupidity. I hate how I have to suffer the consequences of the stupid little things they do. At this rate, I'll be fat forever. I really want to move out now. I don't think this is just a temporary frustration-based notion. I really want to get out of here. I'd only have to take care of myself and I wouldn't have to deal with all the bullshit I've been going through this whole summer. Guess I'm gonna try saving up for an apartment so I can get the  hell out of here by third or fourth year. 

I think I'll try to get to work every weekend. 

Now, I don't usually like to work during the weekend... or at all, but during the weekends especially. My sister has taken it upon herself to visit us. Every. Single. Weekend. I can only tolerate so much of her. I'm already annoyed with her when she's away. She calls our house a minimum of 3-4 times, everyday. Then she goes on to further bother us on msn messenger. How much more when she's actually here? 

She's on what she calls a "sci-fi binge". More like yet another trend that she's adopted to give herself some credibility to her otherwise conformist, uninteresting personality. I've noticed this quite a lot. Each year, she finds some sort of trend to follow and becomes so very engrossed in it. And then she begins to research and gain knowledge about this trend to spew out to others as if she'd liked this thing all along. First it's Korean culture, then Japanese culture (she even started trying to watch anime. Trust me, if you knew her before, she would NEVER to do that. She constantly ridiculed me for having an interest in this and for cosplaying), and now sci-fi. If I lived by myself, I wouldn't have to deal with her being here so often... because she wouldn't be at my house. 

Oh how enticing it would be to live by myself. 

Hopefully things will look up today. I think I'll go to church early, hang out with my friend while she's working and buy some art supplies. I won't have to deal with my family for a few hours. Sounds wonderful.

The End.

Young Cardinals.

AOF is really good to listen to when you're pissed or frustrated, I find.

I'm more frustrated and annoyed today. Why?

Because I hate when people touch my stuff. 

Now that may seem a little territorial.. or selfish or something. 

But allow me to explain. 

You know when you leave things somewhere, assuming they'll still be there when you need them... but then you find that your parents have decided to clean up. And during that time, they take the liberty of taking your stuff, hiding it and never telling you what the hell the did with it. Now, you're probably too busy to notice because of course you have a life. But when it comes to the time when you need that thing you left behind, you can't find it. Realizing that this situation happens way too often, you ask your stupid parents where they put that thing you need. And of course, being stupid as they are, they tell you they don't know. Then they blame you for "leaving your stuff around" and  that "you should have left those things in your room". Now isn't that frustrating?  

More and more I'm thinking about moving out. I really wouldn't mind paying my own rent or taking care of myself. I do that already since all my parents do is sleep all day. I'm the middle child that has to work for everything as I see my older, first born sister getting everything served to her on a silver platter. I already know how to cook and clean. I'm pretty much set. I don't like being where I am right now. It's not even in terms of location or anything. My house is a 15 minute walk and 10 minute bus ride from my school. Pretty convenient. I mean where I am in terms of being treated and feeling trapped in some sort of suburban hell where everything I do is seen as wrong. I'm not allowed to be frustrated because I'm manipulated to think that I brought that frustration upon myself. I hate that feeling. It's like I'm not allowed to actually feel. 

I need to get out of my house. I hate being so dependent. I hate that, in order to obtain any sort of freedom, I find myself once again having to cater to my parents' every whim. I have to follow their schedule or obey their rules. I just want to leave. 

On a more positive note, I got to buy my Special Edition 2- Disc Director's cut copy of Watchmen in a Rorschach case. Plus, I finally got a chance to watch it on my big screen tv. I really want to watch some violent movies. But I think that's a result of my frustration. Since I can't really physically kick anyone's ass, I can just watch other people do it and feel better. 

Well, that's about it for now. I guess I'll clean... and try not to pull my hair out. 

The End.

Rock with you.

So it's been a while since I've last updated. Long entry.

I'm officially done with Summer school! I could've been finished earlier but procrastination got the best of me and I handed in an essay 5 days after my last exam. My official first day of summer was July 20.

Regardless, it finally feels like I'm on summer vacation. What I've realized though, is the fact that I need to constantly need to be busy. I had summer school everyday of the week and that ate up most of my time. Now I have nothing to do on the days that I'm not working. I could ask for more hours at work but.. that would make me loathe where I work. I'm more indifferent to my job now which is better than absolutely hating it. So I've decided to leave my availability as it is. That only requires me to work 3-4 days a week.

I joined the gym yesterday. Hopefully I'll be motivated enough to take care of myself and get healthier. I haven't been feeling the most self confident person lately and hopefully joining a gym will change that.

I've set some goals/objectives that I'd like to do during the summer. Such as joining a gym as well as reading all seven Harry Potter books, along with all of my Watchmen graphic novel, two of the Sarah Dessen books I bought and one book that my sister lent me. I also need to make some improvements on my room. It's a disaster right now. I think I'll finally use my employee discount to buy some shelves and organizers. Also, I've been looking for some scholarships/bursaries to apply to. More money for school is always good. There's this one scholarship that I found that will give $6000. I just need to make a 15 piece portfolio and a 500 word statement. I think I'll work on that. Even if I don't get the money, I'll still have a solid portfolio to show people.

Hm.. I also need to get my driver's licence. Well, first I have to practice, then I have to get my licence.

I bought the Watchmen DVD. It's only the theatrical version. I'm thinking of getting the 3-disc special edition director's cut tomorrrow. Well, that version is only on blu-ray. I have yet to obtain a blu-ray player. But... let me just show you what that version looks like.
Epic win, no? I've been deciding for a while whether or not to get it. But I've decided to get it. It's freaking Rorschach. Enough said.

Besides Watchmen, I've been getting addicted to a lot of things. I've realized that I'm quite addicted to circle lenses. I bought 2 pairs for an anime convention and I just bought another 2 pairs a week ago. These are the ones I've recently ordered.

These aren't as obvious as the other lenses I've gotten. But they look pretty natural and I've heard they're really comfortable to wear. Plus, the effect they have on the eyes looks really cool. I'm pretty excited to get them.

Other obsessions? Michael Jackson songs. I find it pretty sad of me to listen to his songs for long periods of time after he passed away. Had I realized how awesome lots of his songs were, I would've listened to them earlier. I've been listening to P.Y.T and Baby be Mine on a constant loop. So good.

I'm quite glad I'm getting paid tomorrow. I have a few expenses I need to take care of (what was listed above. ;D). After this, I think I should try my best to obstain from frivolous spending. I think I'm developping a problem.

Anyways, need to get ready for work... and possibly clean a portion of my room. I think my OCD is kicking in. The current state my room is in is turning to a quite inhabitable one.

The End.

The Northern.

Alexisonfire came out with a new album June 23. I think I'm in love. 

So this week has been surprisingly eventful. Usually, summer school prevents me from going out as much as I'd like to. Well, that and the fact that I was literally broke for 2-3 weeks. 

I had a 3-day week for summer school. Thank God. Right when I finished school, I hung out with a friend who I haven't seen in 3-4 months. We had a major catch-up session. 8 hours at the mall. All we bought was food. It was quite epic. Aaaand, he's gonna teach me guitar. :D

The day after that, I hung out with 2 of my friends to see the new Transformers movie. I personally didn't really enjoy it. It dragged on too long and the story line was kind of... obvious. Oh well. 

Yesterday, I had an accidental "me" day. I went downtown at around 12-1 to get a haircut. The stylist was such a perfectionist that it took about an hour to get my hair cut. I really like it. It's all thin and layered and such. Just like how I had it in Japan.  I had to make an appointment at the mac store to get my ipod fixed. Since my hair cut took a little long and I was late by 20 minutes. So I had to wait another hour for the next appointment. In that time, I got a bunch of shopping done. It was awesome. So I went to the mac store and it took... about an hour for the genius guy to figure out that the battery was defective and I had to get a new one. Oh well, I got a new ipod touch. So... overall, I spent 7-8 hours by myself. It was pretty awesome. I had some time to relax. 

And... that's about it for events. I'm planning to tell my boss today that I'm quitting. As in... 2 weeks notice. I haven't gotten a new job but.. I just can't stand working there anymore. Too much unnecessary stress. I think I need some relaxation time anyway. So maybe a jobless period wouldn't be so bad. I just don't know what I'm going to say.. or when to say it. I think I'll mention to her before my shift starts that I have something to tell her... or something like that. I still want to be on good terms with my boss... she's a nice person. That's probably why I'm a little scared of how she'll react when I tell her. Maybe I'll aim for a sympathy approach. haha.

Anyways... I think I'm gonna get ready to hang out with my friend. 

The End.

Wordkill.

It's a Saturday afternoon and I'm so very bored, while at the same time way too lazy to do work. 

I was awakened by IKEA calling me at 10:30 in the morning. They asked if I could work an 8 hour shift... I have one tomorrow. So I refused.

I haven't had my coffee yet and I have a slight headache (resulting from lack of caffeine). I figured I'd just write a blog entry because I haven't been really doing that lately (with exception to the short one I wrote prior to this one).. and it wastes time. 

Plans were ruined yesterday so I just stayed at home, bored. I've been reading a few chapters of Just Listen. And I've watched a combination of movies and dramas. I've been avoiding actual work so my room is still a mess. I'm sure a nice cup of coffee will hopefully give me more energy to do something worthwhile. 

So I have started the search for a new job. I have so far only applied to two places. I think I'll do another search this week. I had to remake my resume since indesign kinda... can't open my old one. My new resume is basically an improvement of my old one. Same alignment, heading. Just changed the fonts and heading. Take a look!

Resume 1.

New & Improved resume 2. 

I got an email from my school about working for a newspaper at my school. Maybe I'll look into that. I have some experience with print (yearbook) so maybe I can be of some help. Oh, I forgot to mention, I kind of have a design job. Well, basically my friend's uncle works for a design firm and he's asking for our help in doing some package design. It's more of an experience/reference thing so I'm not doing enough. I wish I was.. then I could quit my job. Oh well. 

Well... my life has been quite uneventful so there really isn't much to write about. I'll be broke for the next couple weeks so I can't go out as much as I'd like to.. and Summer school eats up a lot of your time. 

Back to laziness.

The End.

Gravity.

Haven't posted in a while. Just been really busy with things, I guess. 

So the regular school year is finally over. Took long enough. I had a good week of vacation before starting up summer school. The first half of which I did absolutely nothing. It got interesting by the end; hung out with friends and such. I'm taking an introductory social anthropology course during the summer. It's pretty interesting so far and the work load isn't too much, which is great. Plus, I'll be done July 17. So. Very. Close.

Right now, I'm taking a break from online job hunting. I'm planning to fix up my resume, pdf it and then sending it to as many online applications as possible. I'm currently... unhappy with my current part-time employment at IKEA. I mean, the pay's good and the people with whom I work are generally nice but the job itself is just so unappealing to me. It's a combination of frustrating and boring. And some customers just make me want to chuck my wireless scanner at them with full force. I'm planning to apply at some retail stores at the mall near my house. One of which is a receptionist position at a photo studio. I can use my "work voice" to it's full potential there.

Other then that I've been feeling unnecessarily stressed for some reason. Well, the reason may be my confusion to what I'm currently doing in life. That of course includes my job. It also includes just a bunch of other things I've been thinking alot about lately. I think I'm too indecisive and passive when I approach things. Things never turn out the way I'd like them to be. 

So back to possible productivity. 

The End.

Sharks and Danger.

So I probably should be doing some homework before my class at 4 seeing as I'm swamped with work, work and more work for the next 2 weeks, but I just don't want to. 

Maybe I'll transfer some files to my external so my computer won't crash tonight. I'm planning to have an all-nighter. Although it's never really an all-nighter; I always, always fall asleep. Last Wednesday, I attempted not sleeping and I fell asleep at a random time. I don't even know what time. All I remember was, I was in bed and my brother comes in and tells me, "hey, get ready... it's 7:30".  I've been lacking sleep a lot lately. I think that'll be me for the next 2 weeks. Great. When the 14th, 19th and 20th at 7PM rolls around, I'll be so happy. That will mark the end of my design courses and one of my exams. I have another exam on the 30th... but at least I'll get some sleep after the 20th. 

I think I should post some of my work on this blog. I always talk about my design courses and my projects but I never actually show what I do. Maybe when I have more time. 

Gotta get started on making stuff to sell for anime north. Got 18 days to do it. I'll try to squeeze some drawing into my schedule. Aw man... getting overwhelmed. 

I wish I knew more html and CSS to make my blog page look more interesting. Maybe I'll try some stuff... The header is just a placeholder for now. That's actually a recycled page from one of my projects. But yeah, once the 30th rolls around, I'll be completely done and I'll have more time to do stuff... and sit around. Well, not really. I have summer school from June 8-July 17. But it's only 3 hours a day [9AM-12PM]. Not too bad. I can still have a life after. 

My mind's wandering again. I guess I should get ready for class.. 

The End. 

Stop This Train.

I'm alternating between Jack Johnson and John Mayer now. Really chill music. It's really good to work to. Well, in theory. I haven't really been doing much work. 

So remember my last post? I made a list of all the stuff I needed to get done. Haven't gotten them done yet. I'm planning to get one project done today before 5PM... where then I will meet up with my group and put all our stuff together. Don't know how long that'll take... but at least that'll be out of the way tonight. 

I'm having a mini-panic attack right now. I accidentally fell asleep. Like, really. I was supposed to take a 1-2 hour nap. I remember my phone's alarm ringing multiple times and me turning it off each time it rang. I really should put my alarm away from arm's reach. 

I still need to get that super late project done. Aw man, I'm soo screwed.  I suppose I'll do it tonight after the group meeting during one of many all-nighters this week... Although I probably failed.*sigh* 

It's such a shame that I don't even care how badly I'm doing in my classes. Well, surprisingly,in my fine arts cultural studies class.. I'm improving. I actually got an A on part of my essay. WTF? I'm not complaining. Hopefully that can boost up my mark. I stopped caring about my science class and I just hope to get a B in that class. All my other design classes likewise. I only need to get a 65 average to stay in the program. So.. aiming for a B average this semester? Yes! 

Aw man, this strike totally screwed me over. I have no motivation for anything. I'm already in summer mode. Everyone else is done (or almost done) school while I have to rot in projects and exams for a month longer. At least... I'm a month earlier than high school? 

I've been looking through my schedule for this week. It's a little crazy. Okay, crazy is an understatement. Basically, I probably WON'T be sleeping for a good.. 2-3 days. I'm not exaggerating. I'll have to compromise sleep in order to get all my crap done. Maybe I can squeeze 1-3 hours of sleep. I'm actually looking through my schedule again and planning what days I won't be sleeping.. 

I think Wednesday will be my only non-working day. Picking up my past art projects at my high school and then hanging out with my friend later on. I'll probably visit my teachers before then and maybe forget for a bit how screwed I am. Depending on how much has to be done... that might prove to be another all-nighter. Well, let's aim for a partial one. 3 hours of sleep? Yeah? 

If I didn't have so many hours at work, I could probably sleep during the week. I'm working the whole weekend. Basically working 20 hours over a course of 3 days. Help. I wish I could, but I can't take off any more hours at work. I really need the money. I really need to learn how to save money, actually. Although.. the money spent wasn't a result of reckless spending. I did go shopping a week ago... but then I had to pay my driving instructor a few(ha!) hundred dollars although my parents agreed to help me pay for part of it. 

So I just found out that my dad lost my eyeglass prescription. I need to buy contacts for my cosplay... which takes ABOUT 2 weeks to get to here. I need to get it this week in order to get it in time for the con. I'm getting really frustrated with my parents. Even if I tell them things ahead of time, they put their own things ahead of mine and pretend to forget what I tell them. Then they complain that they have so many things to do and they don't have time. Although half the time they just sit on their asses and watch tv. I haven't watched tv for over 30 minutes a day in weeks. So much for that argument. I hate how I have to come off as a bitch to get what I want. If I "kindly" ask or remind my parents, they blow it off. When I have to raise my voice and sound condescending, then they finally listen. My dad's finally getting my prescription today after 2 weeks of asking. 

I just wish that everything could just go away. I'm so stressed out and I don't know how to deal with it. I'm due for an emotional breakdown. I just know it. Who wants to take bets? Probably tonight. Wait... right now?

So I'm not sure where this entry's going. I suppose it's a sign that my mind's wandering and I need to get some work done. I should have started working 2 hours ago. I hope someone's praying for me. 

Goodbye sleep. Goodbye sanity. 

The End. 

No Such Thing.

Now I'm getting into John Mayer. 

Basically downloaded his whole discography instead of being productive. 

I like the Continuum album the best so far. Very jazzy. 

I'm actually supposed to be at work right now... Called in sick. 

I basically wasted my whole day yesterday so I gotta make up for it tonight. I'm planning to get at least 2 projects done today.. then I have to pull an all-nighter on Sunday... possibly Monday too. 

Right now, I'm basically finishing a project that was due two days ago.. Then I have to finish up some layouts for a group project that's due Tuesday. Well, I need to meet up with my group on Monday to put it all together. I'll need to get some sketches done before I lay everything out. I think I'll stick with something simple.. looks alot nicer. Every time I try to make something overly complicated it ends up looking too busy and ugly. 

Theeen, I need to have a rough copy of an essay done by Tuesday. Well, the whole essay doesn't have to be done. Even rough notes can be done. I guess I'll try to get half of the essay done in rough form...

I'm not quite sure why I'm explaining what assignments are due and how I'm going to finish them. I suppose it's just a form of procrastination. 

So, the only thing I actually did yesterday that I planned on doing was watch Garden State. It's really short but I liked it. Some parts are so awkward that it's funny. There were parts where I cried even though I really shouldn't have. I think that was the stress making me cry. Well, I feel better now. 

Except... I feel kind of exhausted. I guess I have yet to catch up on sleep. I had a good.. 10 hours of sleep the night before last and I felt so tired the whole day. I had.. another 10 hours of sleep last night and.. still tired. I don't think I'd be able to function at work even if it was only a 4-5 hour shift. Plus I need to get some work done... 

Aw man.. I have two 8 hour shifts in a row  next week. I would call in sick to both of them but I actually need the money. I'm so broke right now. I really need to learn how to save money. I think my paycheck is only going to contain 2 shift's worth of pay for this week... and those 2 shifts were only 4-5 hours each. I would totally work more hours, but since I have so much schoolwork to do, it's so difficult to balance both. 

Okay. I really should stop procrastinating. 

Gotta do work... or else I would've blown off $60 worth of scanning items for nothing.

The End.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.

I'm really getting into Jack Johnson. He's so mellow. I like. Listening to this kind of music makes me want to really start playing guitar again. I really hope I make I can get into the guitar class at my school next year. I mentioned that to my friend last night and he told me he could help me get started so I can pwn some n00bs... in an introductory guitar class. haha. 

I haven't been sleeping much. Twice this week I've been having 2 hours of sleep. I guess it's my fault for watching movies instead of doing homework. I watched Detroit Metal City, V for Vendetta (well.. more like finished it. Watched 30 minutes of it in an attempt to "test" the downloaded video the night before), and Fight Club. All very good movies. Maybe I'll have time to watch Garden State this weekend. It's less than 2 hours. That's usually the amount of time I waste when I'm reluctant to do homework. In other words, I'll most likely watch it during one of my many "breaks". ;D

So I suppose the countdown to school ending is starting. I only have... 3 weeks for my Thursday classes and 4 weeks for my Monday/Tuesday classes to end. I will be so happy when May 14 is over. That will mark the end of 12 hour days at school. I really need to carefully plan my schedule next year. It's not even the fact that I have class for the whole 12 hours. It's one four class, a four hour break, and then another four hour break. Sure, I appreciate the four hour break when I have to finish up the assignment for another class but... it gets annoying. I'm basically at school longer than I really have to be. 

I suppose it's crunch time now. We basically have 1 major project (with the exception of one class) due per class now. Well, I actually have to finish up a project that was due yesterday. It's really bad that I don't care so much. It's so hard to get motivated.... especially every time I think about the fact that I should have been done at the beginning of April... stupid strike. 

Anime North is in 28 days. I have yet to make my cosplay, order contacts, buy a wig and style it, and make a massive hammer that apparently has to at least be the same size and I am. I also have yet to start on making merchandise to sell. I should make some sketches between classes so I at least have something. 

So uh... something happened yesterday. It was really random. Basically, I saw this friend perform at a talent show at my old high school. When the show was over, him and another friend walked me over to the bus stop. He was about to cross the street and I hugged him. He said, "thanks for coming to see me!" So I responded with, "yeah, of course". Then he said, "I love you". At the time I didn't think anything of it and I said, "aww I love you too! Be careful going home!"

It could be just a "I love you as a friend" kinda thing. Maybe he just really appreciated the fact that I went out to see him perform last night and I haven't seen him since his birthday which was four months ago. I could just be over thinking... since that is my nature. It probably is that. There was much speculation with this person last year... it's really hard to tell. It was just a little shocking when he said that... at a really random time. I need to stop worrying and assuming things. I need to do some homework. 

So, I will try to get some work done. If my assignment didn't involve websites and HTML, I would totally turn off my internet connection to avoid distraction. Wish me luck.

The End.

Keep it on Wax.

I have rekindled my love for Alexisonfire. I forgot how awesome they are. They have a new album due reeeaally soooon! I had to torrent the Crisis album ALTHOUGH I have the actual CD. My sister just decided to borrow it and never give it back. Who knows what condition it's in? D: 

I'm finally home after a 7 hour shift. So tired. I thought that maybe I would go home early today but... unfortunately not. It was surprisingly busy today! But there were also some really dead periods too. I didn't get my second 15-minute break today... but I guess it's not too bad because when I realized that, I was going to go home 20 minutes after that. haha. 

Anyway, school is still kicking my ass... but not to same extent as last week. I'll be sooo happy when 8:30PM rolls around tomorrow. Then I can ACTUALLY watch movies and be lazy for at least one day. I'm also going shopping with one of my close friends on Friday. There's so many things I need. PLUS I think I'll make my way to Silver Snail and reserve myself some Rorschach action figures. Yes, I said action figures. One with the mask and one without. haha. He's so popular that he's always sold out. :( I got my brother to ask when the next shipment is... and it's in June. Maybe I can pick them up at AN? But it may be overpriced... I don't know. 

 I'm buying circle lenses either this weekend or early next week!  LOOK HOW AWESOME! 

 I really like this series of lenses because they cover more of the iris than other lenses so they look a lot more natural. I emailed the shop i'm buying them from and they're $40 for both prescription and non-prescription. Alsooo it only takes about 2 weeks for the lenses to get here so I can get them in time for AN! Planning to get green (for my cosplay), gray and violet (just because. XD). 

Still gotta get a wig for my cosplay... and then I need to cut it and make props/the costume itself. PLUS I really need to get on to making merchandise. I think if I make 2-3 drawings a week it won't be so bad. Gotta prioritize my time better. 

Okay.. back to work. Rather... back to starting to work. Maybe if I work hard enough, I'll get some decent amounts of sleep.

The End. 

Hello, I'm in Delaware.

Whiney Rant Alert. Read at own risk.

So I thought this weekend would mark the end of my unending assignments. Unfortunately, the unending part still applies to this week... and probably the week after that.

Right when I think I'm almost done, more and more things get assigned. What sucks is the fact that I have so much to do... with very little time to do it. I was supposed to finish a bunch of things last night but, to my surprise.. family came over and I was way too tired from the multiple 2-3 hour nights I've been getting for the past 2 weeks. Because I was so tired, I slept in till 1PM and needed to get ready for church at 3... I'm going to get as much work done tonight before 11:30PM... I need to get a decent amount of sleep because it's going to be, pretty much the busiest day of the year for IKEA tomorrow and I'm working close to 8 hours. FML. I thought I'd be able to work on things after work... but now my mom wants us to go to a 4 HOUR mass tomorrow night at 8 PM. I have work will 5:30... it takes me a while to get home because I don't drive... 

How the hell am I going to get all of this stuff done? So much for watching movies and actually having a day where I can enjoy myself for once. 

I don't know... It's not that I'm against going to church or anything. But we could totally go the next day and not have to be in mass for 4 hours. I don't like when people think they can take precedent over certain things without thinking about how other people actually have a mountain of school work and 8 hours shifts at work. I guess I'm not sleeping Saturday or Sunday night. Good thing my class is at 4PM on Monday. 

Hopefully my next entry will be a lot happier. 

I need to get some work done... 

The End.

Between Rupture and Rapture.

So I'm at school right now. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I practically had 3 projects due today. I'm finally finished with them and I can experience partial freedom for 2 days. Then its a long weekend. No school. No work. Perhaps a movie marathon will be in the works this weekend? I have about... 8-10 movies I've downloaded but haven't had the time to watch. 

My room could pass off as a replica hurricane site. I have yet to finish reading my Watchmen graphic novel. Nor have I even touched my cosplay. Need to get things done! Pronto!

So I'm waiting a while for my friend. Unfortunately, in an attempt to leave my house early (I woke up an hour later than I wanted to), I forgot my phone. 

Oh, class is over. People are leaving... She might be coming out now. More to come later.

The End.

Save Your Scissors.

For the next 52 days, I'll probably be listening to City & Colour with every given opportunity. Why, you ask? BECAUSE ON MAY 25, JNEH AND I ARE GOING TO SEE HIM! 

Now feast your eyes on the greatness that is Dallas Green:

What's so awesome about this is, we have Anime North and then Dallas right after. I'm so happy I think I just might faint. 

This day–despite the pouring rain outside–is probably one of the best days ever. I got off work (which was an 8 hour shift) and now I have more time to work on stuff. Now hopefully my dad hung onto the receipt where it says that I bought an ipod. That way I can replace it. haha. 

I can't wait till next Thursday's over. Like, srsly. THEN SWEET, SWEET PARTIAL FREEDOM!

Okay. Now back to work. *sigh*

The End.

Like Knives.

Haven't updated in a while. School is literally kicking my ass. I haven't actually had the time to have a life outside of school and work. I'm trying really hard to get things done ahead of time... but it's just so overwhelming. Once I finish one thing, 2 or 3 things show up and it feels like it's never going to stop. I haven't gotten to the point where I want to cry yet. I still have a few days till it gets that far. 

Want to know what my schedule's like so far?

-Friday (tomorrow): Work from 11:00-7:00. Might have to meet up with people to finish a project due Tuesday.

-Saturday: Meeting with group again at 11:30 to finish up project. Then onto work from 5:00-10:00

-Sunday: Need to go to church at 10:30AM, then  onto work from 2:00-7:00. After work, I'll be working my ass off on my dying/research project.

-Monday: Dyeing assignment & research paper due. Need to get design image book printed and bound in the morning. I'm expecting close to 50+ pages. Oh joy. Will probably be working on essay proposal and annotated bibliography. Possibly no sleep.

-Tuesday: Design image book, interdisciplinary project presentation, essay proposal and annotated bibliography due.

-Wednesday: Surprisingly, no work. But I'll be working on my assignments due the next day.

-Thursday: 20 compositions done on illustrator, 10 vector drawings of photos I took, 4 html layouts. 

I really wish everything wasn't due on the same week. It's just so frustrating because there's only so much I can do before going completely crazy. 

On a more positive note? My friend and I might go see City and Colour on either May 25, 26 or 27! Omg it would make my life to see Dallas Green play live. He's such an awesome singer/musician. After listening to his CDs it made me want to play guitar again. I'm still debating whether or not I should take those lessons at school. My poor acoustic has been left unplayed for  so many years. =(

One of my "bosses" at work is being nicer to me. Well, he was never mean but our conversations would consist of "hi how are you?" "I'm good, how are you?" "good". Now we actually TALK. And the other day, he complimented my hair. It's kind of weird because it was so sudden. Hopefully I won't do something to piss him off. I like the niceness. haha.

Oh man.. there's so many things I need/want to do after next Thursday is over. I need to go shopping. I haven't bought new clothes in a really, really long time. And I also need to get started on my cosplay. I think I can get some parts of it done without consulting with my cosplay group. I can probably get the pants, scarf, headband and accessories out of the way before we all meet up and make the jackets together. Plus, I need to draw/colour merchandise for anime north. Woooow. It's gonna be a busy couple months.

I think I'm going to change my availability at work. I can't handle so many shifts and there's close to 40 cashiers that can work. Plus, I got a raise at work so I can work less hours and still get decent amounts of money. I think they'll survive without me working 21832918019 hours. 

The schedules for the next school year is up. I can take guitar class! I'm debating whether to take 2 courses in the summer so there's less the worry about during the actual year. I still have some time... well, till Thursday. 

I think I'm going to head off to bed pretty soon. Need to be rested for work. *sigh*

The End.

I'm Content with Losing.

Hm.. haven't listened to underOATH in a while. 

I've been pretty stressed and sleep-deprived lately so listening to some screamo proves helpful.

I've been swamped with work and I don't think anything's going to let up any time soon. This past week, I've had an exam I'm sure I've done badly on and I have a bunch of projects that I need to do before this weekend because well, I'll be scanning items for a collective 15 hours with an extra 3 hours to listen to workplace gibberish that I probably won't understand. Oh well, I'll get paid.

It kinda feels like ...I'm in this little room with everything converging into this dark, dense mass and the door's locked. I'm suffocating under all this work and pressure and all the other trivial crap I have to deal with and there's no way out. These next 2 months will certainly feel like hell. 

I've been having an average of 3-5 hours of sleep a night for the past 2 weeks. Coffee's starting to have no effect on me and I've been feeling fatigued more quickly and more often. I know I need a decent amount of hours but it just doesn't seem like I'll get any for the next few weeks. If only there wasn't a strike. I would've felt this crappy feeling 2 months ago but look forward to the beginning of April, when I was supposed to be done everything and not want to jump off a bridge. 

This is pretty reminiscent of how I felt last year during yearbook. We'd all be working so hard for not only the book itself, but with our other subjects. Balance that with a part time job and having friends tell you you didn't have enough time for them or have people you generally liked begin to hate you and stab you in the back. 

I hate recalling feelings like that. Even though it's all over and done with, one little thing can trigger how shitty you felt on that one certain day... but then it's doubled because you're feeling that way you felt back then today. 

I've noticed that I've been getting more bitter and annoyed with a lot of things. I think I just need some time to myself where I don't have to think about school or work or other people. I think I need to go to church or something. Need to clear my head. I feel kind of intolerant with certain things and people now... but maybe because I'm just so used to them. 

I think I sometimes hate presumptions people make about certain people. Like, if you're generally happy, you're automatically the happy person and you're not allowed to be sad. You always have to laugh and put on a show for everyone so then they too can be happy. I remember in grade 9, there was this one time where I was extremely depressed for a few months. One day in art class, someone noticed and said, "hey, what's wrong? Don't be sad! You're never sad!" 

My mind's all scrambled now. I guess I should get back to work... maybe I'll actually have some time to sleep or just not think about all the wrong things that are happening.

The End. 

Some sense of security.

So I got my exam over with yesterday. I thought I wouldn't be able to squeeze in some more studying before the exam, but my prof for my morning class tends to leave for long periods of time... very often. He also tends to end class 2 hours or more before we're supposed to leave. I don't really mind that... I have the same prof Thursday evenings and that means I get to go home earlier. 

The exam wasn't too bad... I know I'm not going to get 100% but at least I knew some things. A girl in my program left the exam after 20 minutes because she said she just couldn't think of anything to say. She apparently tried to study for a week but nothing sank in. No offense, but hearing that kinda made me feel a bit better about my situation. Does that make me a bad person?

I was at work for the first time in a week. It wasn't too bad. I didn't screw up and I got to leave an hour earlier. That was perfect because I was able to go to the bookstore and use up the rest of my Indigo gift card. I bought a Sarah Dessen novel, The Watchmen Graphic novel compilation and a bag. The total was only 69 cents less than what was left on the card. It was originally $75 but my brother and I used some of it on Saturday. 

Oh so as I said in earlier entries, I watched Watchmen with my little brother on Saturday. IT WAS FREAKING EPIC. Like, wow. I loved how complex the storyline was and the characters were really interesting. What I think I liked the most was the fact that it wasn't like any other typical superhero movie I've seen. It was darker and more real. I read some of the graphic novel when I got home today and wow, the movie's pretty damn close to it. Some of the things they say in the movie are exactly what they say in the graphic novel. So yeah... I'm kinda obsessed with this movie now. I've already bought the graphic novel and I got myself a Rorschach poster too. I'm also planning to get a Rorschach action figure... although, it might be sold out because he's really, really popular... >.<

I realized while watching that movie how much more desensitized to violence I am. I'm sure if I watched a movie like that last year, I would've freaked out and covered my eyes. There were parts where I actually laughed. I told my brother the parts that I thought were funny and he goes, "what? why were you laughing? That was a really bad part!" I'm turning into a sadist, aren't I?

I checked my marks for my visual language and typography class. I basically got the marks that I knew I was going to get. I'm no psychic. It's not that hard to find out your final mark when you get the same grade for every single project. 

I finally made some purin. I've been craving some ever since I went fabric shopping with my friends. We went to a Japanese restaurant that sold some and well, it kinda sucked. I was surprised because when I had some at that place before, it was really good. Probably got a trainee to make them. How sad.

I'm so sleepy. But I need to get some design homework done. It probably won't take too long. 

Kay... need to refrigerate my purin and get some designing done!

The End.

The Death of Me.

So I'm procrastinating once again. I apologize for not providing you with an extensive update on my life. I apologize again for disappointing you once more. 

I have a midterm exam tomorrow and I think I only know... 40% of the content? It's my fault. I haven't been trying in this class. It's a mandatory course all fine arts kids have to take to get their respective degrees. I guess it's supposed to aid in the appreciation of different facets of art... but I haven't really seen anything pertaining to design. It's mostly dance and music. Kinda biased if you ask me. 

I'm not looking for a 90 in this class... not even an 80. Hell I would honestly be happy with a 70 in this class. Well, for this midterm... I'd be happy with a 60. I'm not going to lie. 

I'll update some more Tuesday night. That'll probably be the last time I'll be at peace for days to come. I'm so not looking forward to Friday. 4 straight days at work. Shoot me now. Please. 

Back to studying. 

The End.

Hot Knives.

So I was randomly looking through my horoscope... and holy crap it's so freaking accurate. 

Suddenly things are coming to a head for you, dear Gemini. The drama is escalating, and you are not sure if you can remember all of your lines. Take things one step at a time. Deal with the issues as they come. If you get a head of yourself, you might get overwhelmed by what you fear will be more daunting of a situation than you can handle. Don't sweat the small stuff. 

I'm too tired/lazy to write a full entry. It will probably be extensive and a good, long read once I get to writing it. 

I'll just say, I screwed up (as per usual) today but God was being generous and gave me a chance so I'm not out of the running yet. Quite ambiguous... I know. More explanation tomorrow. 

I'm gonna watch Watchmen with my brother tomorrow! Then we're gonna get some books and I'm treating him to lunch. woooooot! 

I need to study for my midterm. It's this Tuesday and I'm so screwed right now. Oh well, just need to pass. I love how motivated I am. 

The End.

Way to go.

Via remindyourself.

Came across these a few months ago. Although they're pretty obvious, they're really good to look at when you feel like crap. Been looking at these alot lately. 

Possible entry later on today... after I actually accomplish something.

The End.

Another Day In Paradise.

The title should be read with an air of sarcasm. That way, it'll be an apt representation of my day/week.

Don't want to get into much detail. Just need to rant. The next few lines will most likely feature some self-deprecation , profanity and emo crap. You've been warned.

So I'm a total screw-up. I've been trying my best not to be, but I always end up screwing up even more. To be nerdy for a second: have you watched/read D. Gray-man? I feel like Miranda Lotto before becoming an exorcist. Except, in my case, there's not going to be an innocence powered clock, rewinding town... or me becoming an exorcist. I would totally rather be killing demons than doing what I do right now. I've been feeling like shit lately. I don't really want to tell too many people because I'm sure they have other things to worry about than my pathetic life. Right now, I feel like I've reached a place where I've screwed-up so much and I won't amount to anything because of all the things I've fucked up on in the past. I hate being so lazy and just so fucking stupid. I can't seem to help it... which is a really bad sign. I'd like to change but every time I try to do that, I end up giving up. FML. 

I've been listening to certain songs and looking stuff up to make me feel better. I've started watching more shows online in an attempt to make me laugh my troubles away. I've watched Crows ZERO a total of 6 times so far... mostly because when I get pissed. I take joy in watching people kick other people's asses. 

So I suppose that's the end of ranting. 

Time to think positively. Yeah, let's try that. 

 

I'm getting paid tomorrow. I'm probably gonna get alot since I've worked more than 30 hours these last 2 weeks. 

My uncle sent me a confirmation form of the hotel room my friends and I are gonna share at anime north. 

This Friday is the day where we have to claim tables for anime north. 

I don't have work for one week.

My brother and I are gonna watch The Watchmen this Saturday, followed by book shopping and eating out for lunch. I don't get to hang out as much with my brother because of school and work so I'm really glad that he wanted to watch this movie just with me. Although... It could be the fact that it's an R rated movie and I could get the tickets no problem,  but let's just assume it's because he wants to spend time with me. 

My second semester classes are starting tomorrow. I get a new start and maybe I can break my streak of being a fuck up. 

My piercing doesn't really hurt anymore. 

Right when I got home feeling like crap, my friend sent me a super long email in response to the emails and messages I've sent her. That made me feel so much better.

Wow, this made me feel alot better too. I apologize for all the swearing. I can't eat any candy because I gave up junkfood for Lent. This will probably be the only way I can cope with stress... and sugar deprivation.

And now, I need food. Then I have to attempt to make notes for a midterm I'm having next Tuesday. Pray for me. 

The End.

In My Room.

How apt.

I don't feel like designing right now. Although... I didn't really do much work today. I had customer service training at work today. So I basically got paid to sit in a room for 3 hours and read a powerpoint on how to better serve our customers. Hoorah! Well, it wasn't bad. I got to see a lot of people at work today, which was cool. One of  them being my best friend. Tee hee. 

So I suppose I'll give you a quick update in the hopes that it'll somehow inspire me to fix up my design projects. This Thursday was the last day of my delayed fall semester. We didn't do much... it was more of a work period. I actually left half way through my second class and went to a flea market that my school was organizing. I bid on some cat figurines at the silent auction and guess what... I WON! They were worth $100 for a set of 10. So I basically paid for a quarter of its worth. I don't usually win stuff like that (IRL) so I'm pretty psyched. I think I'll pick it up on Tuesday... cause that's when I plan to drop off my design projects. Although... I have till March 6 to get them. 

Hmm what else? Oh, work has been kinda meh. Well, my co-workers are cool and really nice. Just some of the customers can be so difficult that I just wanna throw my scanning gun at them. Honestly. Yesterday, I worked 7 hours. It wasn't as busy... which was surprising for a Saturday. But, there was this couple that were nice... until I scanned their items. They were telling my that the prices on their shelves were actually $30 cheaper than what they were supposed to be. So I called that respective department but it was so busy upstairs that I had to call about... 5 or 6 times. At one point, the customer was shouting at the representative on the other line. Eventually, I just had to do a price over. Thing is, the same situation, with the same couple happened with a bed frame. This didn't end so easily. I had to call the beds department, then the bedding manager and finally a representative went downstairs to the cash area where they talked to the disgruntled customers. It took foreeeever. I have no idea how long it took to call all those people upstairs. All I know is, after a good 3 or 4 customers after the difficult ones, it was time for my 15 minute break. Also, when I got back from my break, those customers were still there, arguing with the beds department representative. At least they weren't mad at me. Thank God. 

Oh, so my sister knows about my piercing now. Well, I had to tell her at 4AM Thursday morning. It was really funny because she had no idea I got pierced although it was 4-5 days after and I had my hair up, clearly revealing my piercings. And I had a big bag of what looked like cocaine–but is actually sea salt–lying on my desk. She told me, "wow, I'm going to be such a bad mother. My kids are gonna get pierced and it's gonna take me forever to notice." Her friend agreed. haha. 

Wow, I'm all over the place today. On Friday, my close friend and I visited our yearbook teacher. He was having a really bad day although, he appreciated our visit. That yearbook is alot worse than our year. According to our teacher and one of the students, they have already missed a deadline, lost equipment and n00b out on layouts (despite the huge amount of resources that past yearbook staff weren't lucky enough to have). But yeah, I feel kinda bad... although I had a lot of hardships with that class and some people involved. I guess that's how I am. I always end up feeling really bad for people, despite what they did in the past. That can be both good and bad–I get taken advantage of a lot because of that. 

Anyway, we met up with our other friends the same day to go cosplay fabric shopping. We actually got fabric this time! I just need to get one more colour and I'm gonna get started. I'm sooo excited. Oh man, I need to get started on some art to sell and I need to get some coloured contacts once I find my prescription. So many things to buy! Good thing I have a job. *phew*

Alright... I think that's about it. I'm gonna try to do work. I'll try to resist the urge to watch some movies. That's gonna be pretty hard. 

The End.

GO! GO!

So I have a day off school. I was planning to be all productive and get a huge percentage of work done. I have so far folded laundry. Yes, I know. I fail at life.

Hm.. what else? I spent most of Valentine's day working. Which is totally fine since I didn't have any plans and I made $50. 

Yesterday, I got my ear pierced with one of my close friends.  We both got helix piercings, I got 2. The guy who pierced our ears was really funny. He said f*** like it was totally natural. But yeah, it was really quick. It only hurt a bit... more like that prickly feeling you get when you get a needle? Well, my second piercing hurt a lot more than the first. Probably because my ear was just getting used to the first one. Shall I show you? I think I shall.

I apologize for the crappy photo quality... I took it with my phone. My ears look odd, IMO. My earlobes are HUGE. I look like a buddha. Buddha can pull it off though, I can't. haha.

I think I spent close to $200 yesterday. I need to know where my money went. Well... how much money went to each place. 

When I got home, I didn't tell my mom right away that I got my ears pierced. My sister's home and she would've blown things way out of proportion if she found out. She still doesn't know. (Don't tell her please? Meaning, no congratulatory messages on public forums. Facebook especially. Thanks). I was waiting for the right time to tell my mom... but my sister was clinging to her for hours. When my sister finally went to her room, I told my mom in the kitchen. When I told her and showed her my piercings, she didn't freak out. I was surprised. She just warned me about infections... although I already told her that the place I went to was clean and used sterile equipment. So yeah. I didn't die last night. 

So I'm gonna try my best to pry myself off my computer and do some work after which I shall have a mini movie marathon. I make no promises about the first part. 

The End.